Ain’t Gonna Eat Out My Heart Anymore
June 18, 2010 by Publisher · Leave a Comment
The tickling woke Mason Protheroe to semi-consciousness. With complete detachment he watched a huge centipede flow across his naked belly. Another worked its way out from beneath his outstretched legs. Rearing up from its midsection, the one on his stomach pointed its head toward his face. Weird, as if it were trying to tell him something. After a moment it dropped back down. Both monsters scuttled away into the further reaches of the darkened cellar where they coiled around one another in some unfathomable arthropod dance.
He had on only his Dockers but they were filthy, stained with dark blotches. What was he doing, semi-naked, barefoot, in the basement? It was unfinished, and he only ever came down to use the washer/dryer. He frowned slightly, trying to remember. It was like he had a cold; there was that same clogged, wooly feeling between his eyes. He wondered if he had fallen on the rickety stairs and hit his head. If he were dazed from falling it would explain why he was unaffected by the sight–and touch–of the huge centipedes.
Grey light filtered in through the dirty windows. Irregular metallic rattling from the propane tanks outside told Mason it was still raining lightly, drizzling. He couldn’t tell what time of day it was, early or late.
Drip drip. The sound jarred something loose in his memory. A slow-moving Caribbean hurricane tracking up the Eastern seaboard had wandered inland and stalled somewhere north of Stroudsburg, up in the Poconos, deluging land already soaked from unseasonably heavy rainfall. The radio warned of flooding “Possibly worse than in 2005,” as the NPR announcer in Philly put it in a tight voice.
Sure enough, for the next two straight days it rained, and rained. Mason, an advertising rep for the Bucks County Herald, drove around collecting ad copy as usual, while the weather worsened. Yesterday—Wednesday, as nearly as he could recall–he hustled to finish early so he could get back to Jersey and keep an eye on his house. Wendy, his live-in girlfriend, was an ER nurse for Hunterdon Medical Center in Flemington. She had worked the midnight to eight shift that day and wasn’t scheduled to go in again until the weekend. She was having breakfast when Mason got home.
They put Mack on a leash and went outside to look around. There was relatively little wind plucking at their umbrellas. Rain poured down heavily, the load of water forcing tree boughs down nearly to the ground. Runoff rushed through the ditches alongside the road, tentatively reaching across the asphalt in places as though testing its bounds.
They nervously watched the river rising as Mack pulled at his leash, eager to get down to the water’s edge where he smelled whatever it was that got dogs excited. Something dead, washed up by the swollen river, no doubt.
Mason hadn’t wanted to evacuate. The house was high enough up the hill, he argued. Wendy didn’t doubt it, but she remained anxious.
They went back in. Around five PM the power flickered then went out.
Not at all abnormal during a storm, in that rural section of western Hunterdon County, smack up against the Delaware. Candles were at hand, and Coleman lanterns. Some householders owned generators that automatically kicked in when the power grid crashed, but Mason couldn’t afford one.
He went downstairs to check the breaker box, more to placate her than because he thought he could do any good. And then–
He sucked in a breath, remembering. Yes, the centipedes! Huge, monstrous things like nothing he’d ever seen. Not normal house crawlers these, but colossal horrors more than two feet long, red and brown, things out of a rotting, Carboniferous rain forest. They roped out from behind the old coal bin before he could react and attacked him, biting with armored jaws shining in the glare of his Maglite. Things went fuzzy and vague. Venom in the bites, perhaps. He must have passed out.
He held up his arms and inspected the punctures. Yes, they’d bitten him, all right; more than once.
The convocation at the far end of the basement broke up and the two ’pedes flowed past like insectile express trains on their way to—wherever. He watched them go up the stairs to the first floor, not finding them at all revolting or horrible. They seemed no more threatening than buttercups.
I must have whacked my head, he thought, feeling in vain for bumps or contusions.
He looked around for the flashlight and spotted it a few yards away on the cindery floor. Rising slowly to his feet he went over to pick it up and thumbed its switch. Nothing. How long would it take those batteries to drain? Three hours? Four? Had he lain here all that time? Longer, surely; it had been night when he came down here.
Mason realized he wasn’t wearing his glasses, yet somehow his vision was perfectly clear. Clear enough to see the spider, poised motionless on the wall next to the breaker box like an obscene, twisted asterisk.
It was nowhere near as big as the centipedes, just a common wolf spider, the sort that usually didn’t head indoors until cooler weather. This one had obviously decided to wait out the unaccustomed wet in the basement. Motionless, it was probably hoping he hadn’t noticed it. Its body was about the size of the first joint on Mason’s thumb, with legs an inch or so beyond that. Big, but no threat.
Terrified, he backed away, scrabbling in the dirt until he fetched painfully up against the stairs. Keeping his eyes fastened on the creature Mason scrambled backwards up the steps. He plopped down on the linoleum tile floor of the kitchen, breathing hard, wondering what the hell was the matter with him. He’d never been afraid of spiders, never; yet here he was panting like a frightened little girl, sweating, even feeling faint.
He took several deep breaths to steady his stomach. Then he smelled the blood.
That coppery scent couldn’t be anything else. Sudden dread wormed through him. Where was Wendy? How long had he been unconscious in the basement?
He scrambled to his knees and, in the brighter light of the kitchen, saw bloody streaks across his midsection. He was coated with dried blood. Now that he saw it, he noticed its faint scent. But the thick, cloying aroma filling his nostrils was different; not fresh, partly spoiled, yet somehow not unpleasant. This odd lack of revulsion made him more uneasy.
Slowly he got to his feet. The stench drifted to him from elsewhere in the house. Every step he took toward it increased both his dread and his vague wonder that the dread was not sharper, more lacerating. What in God’s name is happening? A corner of his mind wondered where the ’pedes had gone. Then he noticed the doggy door he’d put in for Mack slowly swinging back and forth in decreasing arcs.
Mason walked unsteadily past the kitchen island, where he saw the limp remains of salad in a big bowl, and through the door into the hallway beyond. The smell of blood grew stronger. He lowered his head and lifted his eyes, staring at the stairs.
Whatever it was, was up on the second floor.
Mumbling and moaning he made his way slowly, very slowly up the stairs. Tears began leaking from his eyes. When he wiped his hand across them, the fluid looked greenish.
With his gaze cast down on the familiar carpeted steps, he couldn’t help seeing dried brownish stains. The splotches increased in size as he ascended. His eyes came level with the floor of the hallway. On the carpet, more dried blood: a lot more. How long would it take for that much blood to dry? A day? Two?
To his right at the top of the stairs was a bathroom. Directly ahead, a window overlooking the back yard. The hallway hairpinned back from the staircase toward the front of the house. He turned, seeing the trail of bloodstains leading toward the front bedroom. For the first time he heard the buzzing of flies.
It was like being in a dream. Mason knew something bad was in that room but he kept being distracted. Blood on the wall… how’ll I get that off? Can I use OxyClean on the rug?
The combined reek of dust, damp and old gore would, should, have made him ill. Now they almost comforted him as he took the last few reluctant steps into the front room.
Gripping the doorframe, he slowly peered inside.
Wendy was there, most of her. And Mack, but not much of him was left apart from bones. Their remains lay heaped to one side of the bedroom, Everything–the rug, the bed, the TV set, the dresser–was coated with blood. Some of it must have sprayed from torn arteries and veins, because loops and splatters of it laced the walls and had dripped down to dry like spilled wine.
Something had torn Wendy’s very guts from her abdomen. What remained of them lay in the blackened, fly-glutted body cavity like fat purple eels in a dreary underwater cavern. Her face was partially eaten away, but glazed, collapsing eyes staring up at the ceiling. Twisted into the wreckage of her once lovely face was a jagged expression of astonishment and horror.
Mason sagged against the bedroom doorway. The streaks of blood on his hands looked smeared as if they had been hastily wiped. Blackened material had caught under his fingernails and when he sniffed at them with his heightened sense of smell, then he caught the faint stench of rotting blood. Sobbing, he willed himself to remember.
He had done this. After the centipedes’ bites injected their venom, the poison’s hellish hallucinogenic properties had kicked the slats off his sanity and sent him careening upstairs to rend his lover and his dog, to feast on their flesh.
And now? Somehow he had regained his senses. Or some of them, he thought bitterly, turning in revulsion from the evidence of his murderous actions. Enough of them to know what he had done. Enough to torture him for the remainder of his days.
He wished with all his heart that he had remained stuck in his frenzy, unaware of what he’d done. Perhaps someone would have killed him. It would have been a mercy.
He stumbled downstairs in a daze and found himself outside, walking numbly in the drizzle.
Maddened by centipede venom or not, how could he have been driven to kill the love of his life? The shattering fact of it was only beginning to sink in, and Mason hardly comprehended where he was going. He wandered toward town with the vague intent of finding help. Just who he was looking for, or how they could possibly help a damned soul like him, he didn’t know.
He still remembered the day he met Wendy, just a few short miles south of Sherwoods Landing in Stockton, at the Prallsville Mill. He had decided to take a plein air oil painting class given by a local painter. Among the other wannabe Impressionists was a small, dark-haired, dark-eyed woman from Flemington. Before the eight-week class was over, Mason knew two things: one, as a painter he was a good mechanic. Two, he and Wendy had struck some serious sparks that were easily fanned into a blaze of lust and love. He didn’t even care that she was a far better painter than he would ever be. Mack approved of her, and that was that.
That had been two years ago. Since then she sold her condo and had come to live with him in his small house, directly on the river. Everything had been fine until now.
While the day’s light wallowed into a drenching evening mist, Mason caught glimpses of movement in the trees around and above him, and heard rustling. He halted, peering warily upward at several big shapes.
They snaked down the tree trunks like squirrels, head first, dropped to the ground and stood slowly erect, regarding him unblinkingly from sunken, tortured eyes. Human; as human as he was. They slouched out from beneath the trees, slow moving shapes, hair lank in the wet, their clothing streaked with red.
He was, then, not the only damned soul in this ruined town. Cold comfort.
Snake-like, two centipedes squirmed through the underbrush and erupted into the roadway. The shambling survivors came to a semblance of attention as the creatures reared up onto their last few body segments.
Mason watched the ghouls staring intently at the enormous ’pedes. At the same time he felt a sort of mental tickle. It wasn’t until the ’pedes swayed around, facing him for a moment, increasing the odd sensation in his head, that he realized the monsters were communicating with the humans.
Revolted, Mason staggered back a few paces. The “linked in” feeling faded, leaving him enough presence of mind to stumble off into the gathering darkness back to his house. He barricaded himself in, hammering boards up across the windows and doors, even Mack’s doggy door in the kitchen.
He cleaned up in the bathroom as best he could, then sat, bathed in self-loathing, in the living room while darkness cloaked his surroundings. He tried to turn on the TV but the power was still out.
#
By dawn some things had become. Sleep seemed no longer necessary. During the night he had occasionally fallen into a sort of trance state for short while. Now he felt reasonably refreshed and in need of no other sort of rest. Also, he had apparently lost all desire for his usual vices. Prior to being bitten he had smoked about a quarter of a pack of cigarettes a day, sometimes more, sometimes less. The craving for nicotine had vanished.
His new-found fear of spiders probably came from the fact that centipedes and spiders were natural enemies. He went through the house, killing every spider he found, no matter how small or large.
Starving, though, yes–he was growing weaker for lack of sustenance. But the rotting stuff in the fridge didn’t tempt him in the least, nor the canned goods in his cupboards. Instead, he kept thinking about the decaying corpses up in the master bedroom, but he could not bring himself to consciously descend to such a depth of depravity and horror, despite what he had obviously done while deranged. Not yet. Still, he had to find some way of nourishing himself. He wasn’t ready for death. Finally he cleaned himself up as best he could, then yanked a few boards off his front door. The skies had not yet cleared, though the rain had slackened to a dreary drizzle. Just down the road he followed a trail of blood to a wrecked car, a late-model Saturn. It had tilted into a ditch as the driver apparently tried to get round a downed tree. Mason recognized it as belonging to Frank Diamond, a neighbor. Realizing that the blood led away from the car rather than to it, he backtracked and found Frank, cradling a smashed forearm and sitting on his front steps looking hollow-eyed and pale.
“Mason!” Diamond called. He was a hatchet-faced man who worked at a medical advertising agency in Yardley, not far from Trenton, and sang in the church choir.
“’Lo, Frank.” The first words Mason had spoken in three days. Tottering from weakness, he made it up Diamond’s front walk and carefully lowered himself down on the steps next to him. “Hurt yourself there,” he said. The delicious fragrance of Diamond’s fresh blood almost swamped rational thought but he forced himself to remain calm.
“Where’re your shoes?” asked Diamond.
“Hmmm?” Mason looked down at his feet. He’d completely forgotten he was barefoot. “Dunno, lost ‘em somewhere.” His eyes returned to Frank’s injury. “How’d you cut yourself?” He sat quivering while Diamond talked.
“Gashed it on a piece of metal getting out of my goddam car,” Diamond growled. A strange light glowed in his eyes. “Soon’s we saw the river rising I made Susan and the kids get out of here and go to her mom’s place in Bedminster. I figured to stay here and keep an eye on things until they got back, but with the power out, you know, the food has all gone bad so I figured it was time to go. Like an asshole I had Susan take the Jeep four-wheel and I kept the Saturn here. Smart, huh? Well, there’s a tree across the goddam road, and I tried–”
Mason clouted him with a rock. He dragged Diamond’s body to the back of the house and gave in to his hunger.
#
With the fiercest pangs alleviated, Mason crouched over his neighbor’s torn carcass, able to think more clearly. Frank hadn’t seemed aware of the ghouls, so perhaps their appearance wasn’t widely known. At least part of the town was evacuated. Other folks must have fled the rising waters as Frank’s family had done. Maybe there simply weren’t many ghouls around, or perhaps they were only just now emerging from their hidey-holes, as he was. That wouldn’t be the case for long, though, if the ’pedes were building up to infestation levels.
But Mason could apparently pass as a normal human being. The ghouls he had seen in the woods obviously could not, with their ashen complexions and red eyes. Mason let himself into Diamond’s house, where he cleaned up and examined himself in the bathroom mirror. No, aside from some dark circles under his eyes, he looked about the same as ever, a stocky man of somewhat less than middle height with dark wavy hair, a pale complexion and a fleshy face vaguely reminiscent of the comedian Lou Costello.
Feeling relatively clear-headed, Mason set out for the main part of town.
Still mostly a rural township, Sherwoods Landing consisted of little more than a bed and breakfast or two, a gas station with an attached store selling videos, gifts, and the like, a pizza place, a post office, a tavern, and a small boat landing. The 1955 flood drove most of the village’s businesses to higher ground, but by the late 1990s they were back, in time to be flooded in ’04 and ’05, and again now.
A tenth of a mile or so down the road Mason halted. Ahead through the trees he saw the roof of Kip Augustine’s barn, the only blue one in the region and much beloved of plein air painters from Bucks County, just across the river. Something about that barn…
He shook off an uneasy feeling and resumed walking, wiping his face with a rain-dampened rag ripped from Diamond’s clothing. Presently he arrived in town, which seemed deserted. Papers were scattered everywhere. One or two store windows were smashed. A car had T-boned another at an intersection; their doors hung open with blood splashed on the windows. One of the cars, a new BMW, looked vaguely familiar. He knew it wasn’t his or Wendy’s. Just past the crash site a road intersected the main one, leading east. Glancing up its length, Mason saw two forms, a man and a woman, moving slowly toward the Augustine farm. In the grey light it was hard to be sure, but it looked as if they were following a couple of the giant centipedes. Mason wavered for a moment then turned to trail after them.
The pair tottered through the gate at the end of Kip Augustine’s driveway, which was about a hundred feet long and unpaved. By the time Mason arrived at the end of it his feet were thick with mud. Walking a little faster than the man and woman ahead of him, he caught up in time to see them pass through the open doors of Augustine’s barn.
It wasn’t a working farm. Kip, in his early forties now, had been in the first Gulf War, from which he’d returned badly wounded. A long recuperation had left him reclusive and sullen, quite unlike the ballsy high-school track star he had been.
Now he lived on disability and seemed to spend his time watching old science fiction movies on DVD and chatting with other veterans on-line.
Mason entered the barn to find himself standing among a group of ten or fifteen ghouls. Most were adults, but there were two or three children. He thought he recognized eight-year-old Copley Cheyne, but she stood in a deep shadow so he couldn’t be sure. All the ghouls stared at him with dull suspicion. Slowly, they moved away, putting some distance between him and them.
Swaying slightly, Mason said, “What’s the matter? I’m just like you. Those, those monsters.” He gestured at a group of three centipedes to one side. “I was bitten. I’ve done… things. I’m like you,” he finished lamely.
The girl in the shadows stepped forward. Pale and blood-streaked, it was indeed Copley Cheyne. The last time he’d seen her, she’d been riding her bike with friends, laughing and singing. Now she was slack-jawed, with dead eyes. “Not like us,” she murmured as if speaking was a terrible effort. She shook her head. “I mean, you’re like us, but different.” Without turning away from him Copley stepped backward to her place with the others.
“Well, that was helpful,” he muttered. Ignoring them he gave his attention to the insects. He felt the power emanating from them, and recognized it as the same intangible influence he had sensed from them yesterday. They obviously had more effect on the other survivors, who no longer seemed fully capable of independent thought.
Did that mean that the ’pedes were controlling them? If so, he, Mason Protheroe, was immune to some extent. He leaned against an old horse stall in Kip Augustine’s barn and thought about it. Wendy, for example, had never been bothered by poison ivy, whereas he just had to look at the stuff to break out in hives. And there were always people who, for whatever reason, had a natural immunity to disease, even bubonic plague. Apparently he had a partial immunity, at least, to whatever x-factor in centipede venom rendered other victims susceptible to the ghoul-sickness. Ghoul he might be, but the ’pedes could not exert their full thrall over him.
But there were only three here now… how would he fare against the combined influence of five? Ten? Two dozen? Uneasy, Mason decided it was time to go.
A thin, lank-haired man around Mason’s age limped into the barn.
“Hey, Kip,” Mason said. By the circles under Augustine’s eyes, Mason supposed the vet hadn’t been sleeping much lately.
“Hey, Mase.” Augustine approached, halting a bare two feet away. At that distance, Mason could easily see the glaze of servitude in Kip’s eyes. Augustine’s years in the armed forces had turned him surly and simmering, the sort of man who’d beat a dog if he had one.
“Are our friends bivouacking here?” Mason asked, gesturing at the ’pedes and the other ghouls.
Kip managed a cheerless grin. “I’ve got plenty of room,” he said. “You’re welcome, if you’ve a mind to.”
“Thanks, but my place is good,” Mason said. “Got a food supply there.”
Kip shook his head. “Won’t last,” he said. “Sooner or later, someone’ll be by to see what’s what.”
Mason nodded slowly. Kip had a point. You couldn’t go around eating citizens without it causing some concern amongst the survivors.
“We gotta consolidate, Mase,” Kip mumbled. He turned away, and shambled over to the ’pedes. Mason stared after him. Kip seemed a bit more autonomous than the others. Was Kip partially immune to the ’pedes’ venom, or was this something deliberate because the insects needed a human cat’s-paw, someone able to act as a go-between?
If so, the ’pedes were operating on a truly repellant level of intelligence; they could plan. Holy shit.
What was the true goal of these monsters?
Almost without realizing it he found himself backing slowly away, toward the exit.
Maybe there was an antidote. He turned and walked out into the open air, fists clenched. He wasn’t sure he deserved one. What he deserved was death, or lifetime imprisonment. But the regulars, those unaffected by the plague or whatever it was, didn’t. He should warn them. Yes, that was it. They had to be warned. What they’d do to him didn’t matter right now.
With these thoughts whirling through his muddled mind as he regained the main road, he almost walked into Lafferty Hoffman’s Land Rover.
“Hey there, Mase, you okay?” Hoff leaned out of the driver’s window and looked narrowly at him. “You cut yourself or something?”
“Uh, no, my dog got hurt,” Mason said.
“Oh, Mack?” Hoff’s tone turned instantly sympathetic. “He okay?”
“Uh, listen. Hoff–”
“Yeah?”
Dammit, this was the moment to spill it all! And here he was, with his tongue stuck, starting to sweat. “I, look, you seen anything odd going on around here?”
Hoff coughed out a short ironic laugh. “What, you mean apart from the worst flood since ’05 and the power out and the town cut off?” He gestured expansively at the trees, one hand on the steering wheel. The CB radio in the vehicle’s cabin muttered something. “Mase, I’m not a cop anymore, but I still think like one.” He had been shot by a drug dealer from Trenton, and now worked for the New Jersey Parks Department as a ranger. “And I’ll tell you what. We got three kids missing, went camping two nights ago when it started raining. Last night someone killed Bobby Cheyne, and we can’t find his wife and kids. So, yeah, Mase, things are going on. You shouldn’t be walking around alone.”
“Bobby? Oh, God.” Cheyne was one of the township’s two remaining full-time police officers. “Marge missing, too?” The ’pedes; it had to be the ’pedes. That explained Copley Cheyne’s presence in the barn.
Hoff nodded grimly. “We got a serious asshole wandering around, Mase. I was just sort of patrolling. Listen, you want a lift home? I know you own a gun. You oughta make sure it’s loaded and at hand. Where were you headed, anyway?”
Mason took a deep breath. “I think you have more than one asshole to worry about.”
#
Hoff listened to Mason Protheroe’s tale with growing alarm, but he kept his face rigid and expressionless. Ghouls? Cannibalism? Murder? A nest of horrors at the Augustine farm? It was all too much to believe, and Hoff started thinking of ways to get Mason down to the jail so he could restrain him for a few hours until Dr. Saperstein could take a look at him. As a law enforcement officer, he was all too familiar with what prolonged stress and tension could do to people.
Hoff had bigger problems than Mason. Someone had killed Bobby Cheyne, and his wife and kids were among those missing. The river wouldn’t even crest until sometime tomorrow. The town’s troubles were far from over.
And Mason with this crazy talk about man-eating ghouls! The stress had obviously gotten to him. He was filthy and he smelled, but Hoff had seen plenty of other unkempt folks in the past two days. Mason’s manner was distracted and somehow… feral was the only word Hoff could put to it. Mason needed help.
Hoff was stressed himself. All the damp and rain made his gunshot wound ache, and he hated watching the river ruin the peaceful little village that was his home.
Then Mason started talking about Wendy.
Hoff stood it as long as he could. “Look, Mase, why don’t you get in and we’ll go take a look?” he finally asked, struggling to keep calm. His body tightened as Mason walked slowly around the front of the Land Rover and tried to open the passenger door.
Hoff didn’t unlock it. Instead he slid out, saying, “Aah, I forgot; fuckin’ thing’s broken,” he said carelessly. “I gotta use the key. Hang on.” He came around the vehicle and started to reach past Mason with his keys. Instead he grabbed the smaller man and slammed him against the side of the car, handcuffing him. Mason turned slowly, grinning in a strangely nasty way.
“Hoff,” he said quietly. “This won’t do any good, man.”
A cold trickle of sweat wandered down Hoff’s spine but he kept his voice even. “Oh? Why’s that, Mase?”
“It’s just that I’m a lot stronger now.”
“Well, okay, Mase, I’m sure you are, but you know, you sit in the back here and I’ll go take a look around your place.”
Mason shrugged. “Whatever it takes to get you to believe me.”
Hoff drove slowly to Mason’s house. Mason sat quietly in the back seat, staring out at the dripping foliage. The clouds poured by overhead.
Hoff pulled up in front of Mason’s front door and started to get out.
“You’ll want to check Frank Diamond’s place,” said Mason.
“Why? D’ja kill him, too?”
“And ate some of him.”
“All right, then, Mase, just sit quiet for a bit while I have a look around.”
“Sure. Hoff. Uh, front door’s unlocked.”
“Thanks.” Hoff managed to keep the sarcasm out of his voice. He mounted the steps and entered. As soon as he got inside he realized that at least part of Mason’s tale was true; the reek told him that something was dead in here. Perspiring, he carefully searched the first floor, feeling an odd reluctance to venture upstairs.
When at last he did, it was as bad as he could have imagined. Worse. As a cop, Hoff had seen terrible things, including horrific auto accidents and several shotgun victims. But nothing came close to the scene in the front bedroom. He barely made it to Mason’s bathroom before vomiting.
He walked unevenly downstairs and outside. Mason stood by the car, staring abstractedly into the trees across the road. Hoff glanced that way and saw the leaves rustling.
“Whoa, whoa!” he said, doing a double-take. “I left you cuffed in the back seat!”
Mason held up his wrists. They were still cuffed but the chain linking the manacles was snapped. “Told you I was stronger,” he said almost apologetically.
A cold wave of fear sluiced through Lafferty Hoffman. “What’s going on here, Mason?”
“Well, I’ll tell you about it, but we better get inside,” Mason said, nodding toward the trees. “Copley Cheyne is up there and I think she’s got her eye on you.”
“Copley’s eight years old!”
Mason shook his head. “She’s hungry, Hoff.”
Hoff looked at Mason for a moment. He glanced at the broken chains dangling from the man’s wrists, then toward the trees, where a violent disturbance shook the leaves. He thought he caught a flash of pink.
Mason hadn’t bolted after freeing himself. Hoff wasn’t sure if that was good or bad, but one fact stood out: the reporter seemed to know something about what was going on. That put him ahead of former law enforcement officer Lafferty Hoffman, who still felt a responsibility to protect, serve, and defend the people of Sherwoods Landing, New Jersey.
He nodded once, shortly. “Okay, Mase, you win. Let’s go inside.” He pointed his keychain at his car and thumbed the LOCK button, then followed Mason Protheroe, ghoul, into his house of horrors.
Without bothering to ask his host’s leave, Hoff headed straight for the kitchen, since it was the room furthest from the stairs leading to the second floor. But the reek of decay reached even here, and Hoff knew he wouldn’t be able to stand it for long.
He swallowed against his rising gorge, gagged once, and said, “Mason, what the fuck is going on here?” He listened without speaking while Mason laid it out: the power outage, going into the basement, the attack by the centipedes, the awakening many hours later, the discovery that Wendy and Mack were dead. His own guilt.
Mason spoke almost without emotion, and that was what Hoff found most inhuman about him: because he knew Mason Protheroe as a demonstrative, cheerful guy, someone with a grin and a good word for everyone. This dour man looked and sounded like Mason, but all the humanity had been wrung out of him by his experiences, leaving a husk.
A flesh-eating husk.
“These centipedes, with their venomous bites,” Hoff said, after Mason had finished speaking. “Where did they come from?”
Mason shrugged. “All I know is, they’re here and they’re nesting.”
Hoff looked around apprehensively. “What, right here? In the house?”
“No, no. But they’ve found a central… bivouac. Kip’s farm. I was there. They’re using it as a base.”
Hoff stood by the door, staring blankly out at Mason’s drenched backyard. “Mase,” he said, “you have to know how crazy this sounds. Giant poisonous centipedes turning people into ghouls?”
“I can’t help how it sounds,” Mason said from his place at the table. “It’s all true.”
Hoff took a step away from the door. “Well,” he said, “I am starting to believe it.” Across the yard, heading straight for the house like snakes swimming in a pond, came two enormous reddish-brown centipedes.
Mason stood up, a far-away look in his eyes. “Hoff,” he said quietly. “I think I can manage to keep them away from you. Probably.” He motioned toward a door. “Get in the pantry. Keep the door cracked so you can watch. If anything goes wrong, well, you have your gun.” He looked at Hoff through haunted eyes. “It’d probably be best to shoot me in the head. I doubt anywhere else will do much good, though it would certainly slow me down.”
Hoff ducked into the pantry just as he heard the scrabble of claws on the back porch. The dog door banged open and the ’pedes flowed into the room.
Hoff braced the door with his booted foot, watching through a crack he hoped was small enough to keep the monsters out should they try to get at him. He gritted his teeth as he watched the things zip straight for Mason, and crawl up his body and all over his torso. It seemed like more than any human could bear, but Mason’s breathing remained calm and even. Evidently the creatures didn’t bother him one bit.
Yet they obviously had some sort of effect on him, because his eyes closed and he swayed slightly as the ’pedes swarmed over him. Without warning the insects spiraled down off Mason’s body, across the floor and out through the dog door. The entire episode had taken less than thirty seconds.
Mason remained motionless, eyes closed. After another half minute or so Hoff came hesitantly out of the kitchen. Mason’s eyes opened slowly.
“Augustine’s farm,” he said faintly. “We need to go there.”
“Wait a minute,” Hoff said. “You said that’s where your bug buddies are lairing up!”
“Yes, but something going on. We need a closer look.”
Hoff took a deep breath. “Mason, from what you’ve told me, you’re responsible for Wendy’s death. Not to mention your dog. My responsibility is to take you into custody and let due process take its course.”
Mason simply stared at him until Hoff became uncomfortable. “Hoff,” he said at last, very gently. He raised his still manacled hands. “How are you gonna make me do anything I don’t want to do?”
Hoff’s hand drifted down to his gun. Mason shook his head. “I could have killed you already if I’d’ve wanted,” he said. “I want to help, can’t you see that? I didn’t summon these things; I didn’t ask to become whatever it is I am. What I’m saying is, let’s go investigate and see what we can do to stop more of this from happening.”
“All right, Mase,” Hoff said, feeling a cold sense of foreboding.
It was a short drive to the farm, but Mason began reacting almost as soon as they reached the end of the Augustine driveway. “They’re… pulling at me,” he murmured, clasping his head in both hands. “It’s a, a spell or something, broadcast like radio.”
“I don’t feel anything,” Hoff said, parking the car.
“You wouldn’t.”
“They’re just bugs, Mason!”
“Individually, yeah, that’s right. But the more of them there are together, the smarter they get.”
“What, like a beehive or an ant colony?”
Mason shrugged. “Something like that.”
They stood at the foot of the driveway looking up toward the house. “We can’t go this way,” said Mason. “They’ll be waiting. Guards.”
Hoff looked around. “I suppose we can sneak in through the woods, but it’ll be pretty wet going.” Mason shrugged again. Hoff shrugged back and they entered the woods.
Before a minute passed both men were thoroughly soaked. Had it not been a warm muggy August day, they would have been chilled to the bone. Hoff let Mason lead the way; on the one hand, he seemed to know exactly where he was going, and on the other hand Hoff felt more comfortable being able to keep an eye on him.
After a few minutes Mason halted. He remained motionless so long that Hoff finally nudged him.
“Mase?” he whispered. “What is it? You hear something?”
Mason turned slowly and Hoff’s hackles rose. The eyes staring out of the reporter’s face were wide, glazed; hungry.
Mason opened his mouth in a feral growl showing yellowed teeth, and leaped.
“Jesus Christ!” Hoff cried, trying to fight him off, but Mason was incredibly strong. Hoff felt like a child against him. Then Mason’s teeth found his arm, and bit down–hard.
Hoff screamed, struggling against the snarling monstrosity gnawing his arm. With his free hand he reached down between Mason’s legs, grabbed and twisted as hard as he could. The ghoul stumbled back but recovered almost at once and jumped forward again. This time Hoff was ready, and he sprayed Mason full in the face with a can of repellant.
Without waiting to see how effective the strategy was, Hoff whirled around and fled, crashing through the damp foliage. A howl behind him was answered by other, more distant ones, and Hoff realized that Mason’s cries had attracted the other ghouls on the farm.
Terror galvanized Hoff. Ignoring the ache from his old gunshot wound and the new lacerations on his arm, Hoff ran as he had never run in his life.
He burst out of the woods a hundred or so yards from his Land Rover. With the sounds of pursuit growing louder behind him he pounded toward the vehicle.
A pale form materialized ahead of him. Copley Cheyne.
He slowed. He remembered her birth, her christening. He’d even sat through one or two of her school recitals. She raised her hands and yowled to alert the pack.
Hoff drew his gun and shot her in the head. Copley went down in a fountain of blood. He ran past her body without looking, tears mixing with the drizzle on his face.
Fumbling for his key ring he pressed the UNLOCK button. The car’s locks popped up. Hoff grabbed the driver’s door, yanked it open, and scrambled in. Down the road more figures scurried out of the forest. Hoff started the car.
The passenger door flew open. Mason!
Hoff went for his gun.
“No no no!” Mason shouted, backing away. “I’m okay, I’m far enough away to resist them! But get me out of here now!”
Hoff stared at him for a long agonized moment. Mason had shaken off the effects of the mace inhumanly fast. His face was still smeared with it. But Hoff saw the misery and horror in Mason’s eyes. “Get in,” Hoff said.
Mason got in and Hoff slammed the transmission into gear. Twisting the wheel he k-turned, heading back toward town. “Where the hell can we go, Mason?” He glanced at his companion.
Mason gasped. Hoff saw he was looking out the windshield. He turned his head as the car slammed into another vehicle parked across the road.
When he came to he was being dragged along the road by Mason. “We don’t have much time,” Mason muttered. “They blocked the road while we were in the woods, I guess. Come on, Hoff, snap out of it!” He let Hoff slip to the ground, and doused his head in the water rushing through the ditch beside the road. Spluttering, Hoff came up for air.
“They’ll catch us on the road,” said Mason. “They’re as strong and fast as I am, Hoff, probably more so.”
“The woods,” Hoff gasped. “If we can get up over the hills we can make it toward the National Guard armory up on Route 12.”
“That’s nearly five miles from here!”
“I’ll listen to any better idea,” said Hoff. “Maybe you wanna head for the radio station? WCHR?”
“The Christian AM outfit? Why there?”
“Nice strong stone building with a big-ass transmitter we can use to holler for help,” said Hoff. “And it’s only two miles. We can make that.”
Mason pondered it. “All right, all right. You okay to walk?”
“Yeah.”
“Good. Bind up where I bit you. The smell is… kinda distracting.”
They set out over wet rocks and slippery, muddy ground. By now they were both so wet it no longer mattered.
“What put you over the edge back there?” Hoff panted.
“’Pedes,” Mason said. “There’re more of them there now and I couldn’t fight the influence when we got closer to the farm. I’m okay now, though, they aren’t following us. It’s just the ghouls.”
“Oh, that’s a fuckin’ relief, thank you,” said Hoff. “How long they likely to chase us, d’you think?”
“No way to know. Not far, I expect. Too risky for them to show themselves before they’re really consolidated here.”
Hoff puffed on in silence for a few moments, considering Mason’s statement. At last he said, “But by the same token, they won’t want us getting away,” he said. “I mean, I could be written off as a nut if I talk about this, but you… you’re one of them. Incontrovertible evidence. I mean, physiologically… you aren’t the same.”
“That’s true. Well, I dunno, Hoff. You’re probably right.”
“Which means that right now they’re trying like hell to get ahead of us, to get between us and any safe way out of the area.”
“Maybe. Keep your gun ready.”
The land rose sharply from the road along the river. They scrambled through the underbrush, coming out on Warsaw Road. Ahead the road turned sharply left over a culvert through which runoff water gushed noisily. They had just reached the bridge when Hoff spotted movement among the rocks ahead, where the road bent right again and resumed its climb. He grabbed Mason’s arm.
“I see them,” the ghoul murmured.
Slithering down the shiny black rocks, naked, greasy as eels. Five, maybe six people, so coated in mud and filth that they looked like huge snakes.
Hoff’s gun was in his hand before he realized it, and he was firing. He hit one, a man, but the others flashed apart, splitting up. Mason picked up a rock and hurled it with deadly aim, catching a woman in the chest. She fell back gurgling, the rock lodged between her breasts. Then she got back to her feet and came on again.
Hoff fired again, and again, scoring two more head shots, including the woman with the rock in her breastbone. Their foes, reduced to two, a man and another woman, came on more warily. Hoff and Mason fell back, a few yards down Warsaw Road. Hoff glanced behind, down the road. Other pale forms were running toward them.
“We’re cut off,” he said.
Mason started to speak, then gasped.
“What? What?”
Mason could only point at the two advancing ghouls, now creeping over the bridge. “Wendy! It’s Wendy!” He started forward.
“No!” cried Hoff, grasping his arm. Mason shook him off and went to meet her on the bridge.
“Wendy,” he said in a broken voice. “Thank God. I thought I’d killed you.”
The ghouls paused as Mason joined them. The woman stared up at him when he took her hands. “Wendy,” he breathed.
She yanked herself free and slammed her clasped fists into his head. He staggered back and she leaped on him, going for his throat. The other ghoul raced toward Hoff. Hoff aimed and fired. The bullet punched through the man’s head, blowing out the back of his skull in a gush of blood and brains. He staggered to one side and toppled over the railing into the stream.
Without waiting to see more, Hoff ran to where Mason and Wendy rolled around on the road. He seized Wendy’s shoulders, trying to drag her off the barely resisting Mason. She whirled on him, snarling and drooling. Overpoweringly strong, she forced him backward and they staggered into the rocks opposite the bridge. The maddened woman snapped ferociously at him. His arms quivered as he tried to hold her at bay, but she lunged nearer and nearer. Her teeth gleamed. He could not keep his eyes off them.
Hoff heard a thud and she stiffened. Another, and blood splashed his face. She fell limply away, her head a red ruin. Mason stood there with a rock in his hands. Wendy’s blood dripped over the side of the bridge, red threads joining the flow of water. Mason kicked aside some bits of bone and chunks of scalp with hair attached.
“Let’s get out of here,” he said emptily, dropping the rock and not looking down at his girlfriend’s corpse.
Hoff started up the hill toward the top of the ridge.
Mason shook his head. “Not yet,” he said. “My house is over that way a quarter mile,” he said, pointing. “I need to go there. Whoever is upstairs, isn’t Wendy.”
“What about them?” Hoff asked, gesturing down the road.
Mason shrugged. “They’ve got two nice fresh bodies to keep them busy,” he said. “They’ll feed before coming after us. We’ve got an hour, maybe. Besides, Hoff, my motorcycle’s there. We can use it about now.”
Hoff sighed. “Okay, let’s get going.”
Back at Mason’s house they ducked inside. Hoff followed Mason upstairs, covering his mouth against the burgeoning stench of rot.
Mason knelt by the half-eaten corpse. Hoff averted his eyes as best he could from the worst of the damage, and found himself staring at her legs and feet.
“Mase?”
“Yeah.”
“Look at her shoes.”
“What about ‘em?”
“Well–they’re dirty. Caked with mud. Wendy was inside the whole time, right? That night? Whoever this is came from outside, Mase.”
“Yeah, maybe so.” Mason looked doubtfully at the feet. “Wait.” He pointed. “Her ankle. See the little rose tattoo?”
He and Hoff locked eyes. “Wendy’s sister, Sandra. She has a tattoo just like that.” Mason turned his gaze to the corpse’s torn face. “They always did look a lot alike.”
“This is Wendy’s sister, then?”
Mason nodded. “I remember now; I saw a familiar car the first time I left the house… after, you know. A brand-new BMW. I couldn’t place it, being half out of my mind. It was Sandra’s car.”
“What was she doing here?”
“I dunno, she’d stop by now and then to visit. She lives in Philadelphia, she liked to come out here for the day, go antiquing and all that.”
Hoff felt his gorge rise and fought to control himself. “Wendy killed her own sister?”
Mason nodded. “The ’pedes must’ve got Wendy at the same time they got me. Makes sense. My system reacted differently, and I went comatose or whatever, in the basement. But Wendy turned into a full-fledged ghoul. It was Sandra’s bad luck to show up right then for a visit.”
“That being true,” said Hoff, “why didn’t Wendy stay here and finish, you know, eating?”
“She felt the tug. You saw what happened to me out in the woods. I got too close to the epicenter, or whatever, of the ’pedes’ influence. Wendy went under right away. I guess she took Sandra’s car but was too addled to drive and wrecked it. Then she wandered off.” He sighed. “Now I see why I was so hungry when I woke up. I thought I’d eaten Wendy and Mack, but I never did.” He looked up at the lawman. “I’m gonna help you get those fuckers, Hoff. Every last ’pede on Augustine’s farm, and every last goddam ghoul.”
“I appreciate that, Mase, but it’s getting late.”
“Okay, let me find some shoes and we’re outta here like Vladimir.”
Hoff followed him outside to the garage, where a nearly new Kawasaki Vulcan 1600 gleamed in the dimming light. It was black with red trim.
“Here,” he said, grabbing a helmet from the workbench. He tossed it to Hoff. “We better get moving.”
“Isn’t it dangerous driving these things in the rain?”
Mason just looked at him. “Okay, okay,” said Hoff.
Mason turned on the machine’s ignition. “Hey, Hoff; you know what model this is?”
“Hell, no, I don’t know anything about bikes,” Hoff said, settling the helmet on his head.
To his surprise, he saw a slow smile spread across Mason’s pale face. “It’s a Mean Streak,” said the ghoul. “A Kawasaki Mean Streak.”
Hoff threw a leg over the back saddle. He grasped Mason around the middle, trying not to flinch at the ghoul’s faint, nauseating scent of decay and blood. I must be out of my frigging mind, he thought as the machine emerged from the garage.
Mason’s laughter trailed after them as they roared off into the dusk.
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Thirty Seconds
May 8, 2010 by Publisher · Leave a Comment
Back in the Day
In Malcolm’s gloved hand he held God-like power captured in glass. He carefully held the tube up to the light and examined the amber liquid swirling within. Yet his fingers gave only the slightest hint of a tremor, and that was due less to the awesome nature of what he beheld than to his late-night meeting with Johnnie Walker the previous evening.
‘Well, I’m calling it a night,’ Bob said, hanging up his lab coat. He looked over at Malcolm, who barely heard him. ‘And if those dark circles under your eyes are anything to go by, my friend, I think you should be tossing the towel in, too.’
Malcolm nodded absently and rolled the vial over and over in his fingers.
‘I’m serious, Malcolm!’ Bob said. ‘You’re a mess. If you keep working like this, you’re going to make yourself sick.’
Putting the vial down, Malcolm blinked and turned to face his colleague, almost as though he’d been mesmerised.
Bob said, ‘I shouldn’t have raised my voice.’ He strolled over to the tall, oak bureau that stood in contrast to the rest of the lab’s stainless-steel furnishings. On it, a magazine sat beside a framed photo. ‘What happened to the old Malcolm?’ Bob held up the coffee-stained cover of TIME magazine, and tapped it. The headline above the image of the two fresh-faced scientists read, Nobel-Prize Winners: Cure for Death Imminent. ‘What happened to this guy?’ Bob paused briefly, waiting for an answer. When none came, he looked back at the cover and smiled. ‘Can you believe it? Back in the day, when we used to spend most afternoons hanging out of Farmer Riley’s apple tree, did you ever think we would one day discover the cure for—
‘Don’t call it that!’ Malcolm snapped. ‘That’s not what it is.’ It was one thing for the media to dub the serum a ‘Cure for Death’ or ‘The Elixir of Life’, but quite another for it to fall from Bob’s lips—he of all people should know better.
‘Maybe not yet, but…’ Bob shut his eyes and nodded, realising only once it was too late that he’d put his foot in it. ‘That was insensitive of me. I’m sorry. I got a little carried away.’
Malcolm gently placed the vial back in its rack, removed the latex gloves, and dragged a stool from a nearby work bench.
Bob tossed the publication back on the bureau and turned his gaze toward the frame. It was a photo of Malcolm and Bob, both dressed in matching Hawaiian shirts, taken against a tropical backdrop. Meredith held Malcolm’s hand. The two had been childhood sweethearts. Bob had dated Meredith for a while in the fifth grade—puppy love—but by Junior High she was well and truly Malcolm’s. With his free hand, Malcolm embraced a little girl. Her name was Janis and she had just turned three. Her brown pigtails hung on either side of Malcolm’s right shoulder. Her face was buried there and she refused to look at the camera. Bob stood to Malcolm’s right, slightly away from the trio (he had never married, and always seemed to have a slight chip on his shoulder about, what he called, intruding on their family vacations). On this occasion, Bob’s lady-friend—Alice—had joined them. Alice wasn’t visible in the photo because she had been behind the lens at the time it was taken.
The lab was completely silent as Bob looked over the photo, trying to think of something to say that wouldn’t make matters worse.
Outside there was the faint sound of a bell tolling and somebody yelling something indiscernible beyond the boom gates.
It was Malcolm who broke the silence. ‘You know why she was crying that day?’ he asked.
Bob thought about it: ‘Something to do with a toy?’
Malcolm nodded. ‘We’d forgotten her stuffed dog back at the hotel—Booker, she called him. She hadn’t realised Booker was missing until we’d almost arrived at the beach.’ His words were growing thicker and his tongue lazy. ‘She wanted me to go back and get Booker for her. And I said, “No. Because we were running late”.’
Bob nodded: ‘I remember.’
Malcolm’s mouth worked but there was no sound, like in a silent movie. Eventually he hung his head and covered his mouth with both hands, and in that moment Malcolm’s eyes took on the look of someone wearing a balaclava. Tears now ran freely from those eyes and when Malcolm removed his hands from his mouth, long strings of saliva and snot clung to the palm of his hand.
‘I told her, No!’ Malcolm repeated, the timbre of his voice hoarse and guttural. He stood up abruptly and threw the stool across the room. They both watched as it clanged in the far corner.
The last time Malcolm had gone on a breaking spree had been when the bureaucrats had pulled their funding a couple of years back. That was when Phoenix had stepped in, offering to help them complete the project; no doubt, recognising the mind-blowing potential of their research and the effect it might have on the pockets of Phoenix’s stockholders.
Malcolm reached for a tray of empty beakers to smash against the wall; Bob moved forward and placed an arm around his neck, drawing him into his embrace. He held him, and felt his friend’s body quiver with grief. ‘Listen to me—’
‘I told her, No!’ Malcolm spluttered. ‘Can you fucking believe it?!’
‘Mal, listen—’
‘Do you know what I’d give to be able to go back and put Booker in her arms, to wipe those tears from her eyes?—’
‘Hey! Listen to me, Mal! The Cops will get him,’ Bob assured his friend, ‘Sooner or later they’re going to get him. And when they do, you can sit in the witness-room and watch as the State squeezes every last breath from the depraved freak’s lungs. You just have to live for that day. But for now, you have people who still depend on you, Mal. What do you think Meredith is doing right now? She’s mourning just like you are.’
Live for the day.
That’s exactly what Malcolm planned to do.
The Lazarus Effect
He watched as Bob waved good-bye to Ted the security guy from the driver’s-side window of his Chrysler, and as soon as the boom gate shut, Malcolm dropped the blinds and walked back to the bureau. The wall-clock said it was quarter-past-one in the morning. He should be heading home. After all, as Bob had pointed out, Meredith needed him—Meredith who’d taken Janis to the mall; Meredith who had turned her back on Janis ‘for just a second’. It was to ask a sales clerk if the red dress on display in the front window also came in lavender. If it did, she had the perfect pair of shoes at home to go with it.
I swear, Malcolm, it was just a second … You have to believe me! Oh Christ, one minute she’s right behind me, whining about how yucky her snow-comb tasted now that she’d licked all the flavour out of it, the next she’s … just gone!
It was as though she’d vanished into thin air.
They reported Janis missing at the local PD and waited, expecting a ransom call, a note—something! But the only people who rang were well-meaning, and slightly irritating, relatives; the only letters sticking out of their letterbox were the usual bills, flyers and Wal-Mart catalogues.
Christ, Malcolm. What have I done? God, please help them find my baby!
Oh, the police had found their baby, all right. About four days later, in a suitcase at the bottom of a lake. Malcolm had been the one to identify the body, and although the creature stretched out on the metal slab in front of him had barely resembled the corpse of a child, let alone Janis, he had known instantly that it was his little girl. It was the shoes that gave it away. They were the Dora the Explorer shoes he and Meredith had given her on her third birthday.
Malcolm refused to read the police and autopsy reports, although he had access to both. He didn’t need to. The findings were written all over the poor soul’s tiny remains. Each time Malcolm tried to imagine what it must have been like for Janis in the last seconds of her life, his brain boggled with grief and fury.
Don’t hate me, Malcolm. I can see it in your eyes. Please don’t hate me!
He tried to assure Meredith that he did not hate her. That it could have happened to anyone. But did he really believe that? Probably not. Could he make himself believe that? He thought, with time, he might.
It had entered his mind to use the serum. Of course, it had. How could it not? But she was too far gone. They’d only ever successfully used it in cases where the cadaver had been less than twelve hours old and decomposition had not yet set in. Even then, the serum restored life for a few seconds only. That was the problem: no matter how much they tried, they couldn’t seem to break the thirty seconds barrier. The medical journal’s dubbed it ‘The Lazarus effect’.
Removing a key from his pocket, he used it to unlock the top drawer of the bureau. He put his hand inside and removed a small compact-disk. It contained all the data necessary to produce the serum. And it was the only copy. For security reasons, he and Bob were the only people on staff who possessed the knowledge required to manufacture the serum. Because the last thing anyone at Phoenix needed was for the formula to fall into the hands of a competitor, or—perish the thought!—for it to end up plastered all over do-it-yourself internet websites. Malcolm and Bob had co-authored articles in Scientific American and several medical journals on The Lazarus Effect, but these did no more than describe the phenomenon; they gave no account of the serum’s chemical composition or physical properties.
If only the scientific community knew that the secret to immortality—even if only fleeting—lay hidden in something as un-miraculous as the glands of a rare species of Amazonian tree-frog, Malcolm mused, then reached into the drawer for a second object. This one was larger than the first; it was wrapped in a black cloth. He tucked the object together with the disk into his coat pocket and locked the bureau.
He flicked the light switch off on his way out of the lab.
He should be heading home.
After all, Meredith needed him.
Meredith who’d taken Janis to the mall.
The End of all Things
As he approached his Ford Explorer the first thing he noticed was the new paint job. Someone had sprayed the words Dr. Frankenstein across the front driver’s-side door and quarter panels in bright red paint. The graffiti was visible even in the dim light of the parking lot.
‘So much for security,’ Malcolm mumbled under his breath.
When he got to the boom gate, Ted shuffled around the Explorer and shook his head. ‘I don’t know what to say, Dr. Mansfield. I’ve been here since noon. Only Phoenix Laboratory personnel have come through these gates on my watch.’
‘It’s okay, Ted. Shit happens, I guess. I’ll just run it through my insurer.’ They weren’t going to be too happy, though: this would be his third claim in six weeks.
‘I’m really sorry ’bout this, Doc. Soon as I finish my shift, I’ll go down to the control-room and take a look at the CCTV footage, see if that’ll tell us anything.’ Ted shrugged, ‘But if it’s anything like the last time…’
‘I understand,’ Malcolm said. ‘Appreciate it.’
Ted smiled and nodded as Malcolm raised the Explorer’s power window.
He’d almost driven the rest of the way down the long, gravelly driveway connecting Phoenix Laboratories to the main road, when the Explorer’s headlights glared off something dark and motionless in the middle of the path. Malcolm brought the Explorer to a standstill and frowned.
What the hell was it?
He sounded the horn, hoping that if it were some kind of animal the blast might scare it away. But the thing didn’t budge. And the noise did little to help his hangover.
Malcolm drove a little closer then eased his foot down on the brake pedal. That was when the thing in the middle of the road suddenly came scampering toward him; it seemed to be flapping something that could have passed for an arm. No sooner did Malcolm hear the sound of a bell tolling, than the thing threw itself at his windshield. It was a man. His eyes were the colour of egg-yoke and he wore a dirty overcoat, which was torn in at least a dozen places. His windshield filled with dreadlocks as the man’s face and hands pressed against the glass, the interloper’s skin onyx-black, the palms of his hands a sickly pink. And in one of them he gripped what looked like a brass bell.
‘The great day is at hand!’ the man howled. ‘The Lord is coming! From now on, let those who have wives live as though they had none!’
‘Get of my car, creep!’ Malcolm gave another burst of the horn, and winced at the ear-splitting sound.
‘The end of all things is at hand! It is the last hour, and the Antichrist has shown himself!’ The man brought his knees onto the hood, raised his arm—the one with the bell in it—and brought it down hard on the glass. Instantly, a white crater formed in the middle of the windshield. ‘The Lord has sent His angel to show His servant what must soon take place!’
The religious nut lifted the bell a second time and was about to bring it down onto the fractured glass again when Malcolm threw the shift into first and brought his foot down on the gas. The sudden lurch caused the man to sprawl against the hood, losing his hold on the bell; it rolled off the side of the car and disappeared under one of the Explorer’s huge rear tires. Just as the man was beginning to regain some of his balance, Malcolm braked hard and dropped the Explorer into reverse. The inertia sent the preacher toppling over the grill and onto the gravel.
‘I told you to get off my car,’ Malcolm gritted through clenched teeth. He thought about getting out to make sure the guy was okay, but decided against it. That dude was a ferret or two short of a business; if he was still around when Ted finished his shift, he could continue his sermon from the back of Ted’s wagon.
The Explorer cut a hasty path through the long grass on the edge of the driveway, making sure to give the raggedy heap in the middle of the road a wide girth, and screeched onto the blacktop.
Vandalism and vigilante nut-jobs were becoming an everyday event. It seemed like anyone who had an opinion or moral judgement about the goings-on at Phoenix wanted Malcolm to know about it. Couldn’t they just go back to worrying about stem-cell research?
Although, he had to admit, the whole fucking bringing-people-back-from-the-dead thing was damn freaky, even to a man of science like himself. He still couldn’t get used to the idea. The first time he and Bob had successfully used the serum on a real person—as opposed to lab rats and mice—Malcolm had literally shit his pants; we’re not talking just a smidgeon, either.
The mere thought of it was giving him goose bumps.
Malcolm turned on the radio; the sound of Bon Jovi’s ‘These Days’ suddenly filled his head with throbbing, and he quickly tuned in to the Light ‘N’ Easy station, where Tony Bennett was singing ‘Because of You’ in a soft but jumpy tempo.
The subject had been identified only as L-23. He’d left his body to science and, in turn, Boston University had donated it to the cause. But before making a gift of himself to undergraduate medicine, L-23 had been Roger Phegan, a sixty-four-year-old banker from Charlestown. When he’d passed away in a multi-car collision only hours before the experiment, he’d left behind a grieving wife, three sons—one of them also a banker—and eight grandchildren. Malcolm had administered the serum by sticking the hypodermic needle into the grey flesh of L-23’s neck; for the next two minutes Bob examined the cadaver for vital signs.
‘Anything?’ Malcolm had asked, hopefully.
Bob shook his head. ‘Nope. Still dead as a door nail.’
It was a damn shame. He had really thought this formula would be the one, and he couldn’t understand why it hadn’t worked: they’d managed to get a whole three seconds out of the lab rat with only a fraction of the dose. ‘Well, I need to take a leak,’ Malcolm said. He’d been holding it in ever since they’d unzipped the body bag. ‘Back in a tick. The .38’s in the drawer.’
Bob laughed. ‘What’s that going to do? He’s already dead, Mal. The idea is to bring them back, not blow what little there’s left of their brains out.’
When he was coming back from the men’s-room, Malcolm thought he could hear people talking in the lab, and his heart began to race. He sprinted the rest of the way down the corridor—almost tripping over himself twice—and burst into the lab to find the subject sitting up on the metal slab it had been laying on only minutes earlier. L-23 was completely naked and in pretty good shape for a motor-accident fatality, except for the left eye socket, which was filled with blood from where the turn-signal lever had impaled him when his head had smashed into the steering column.
But he was very much alive.
Jesus wept, he was alive!
The irony was that at that very moment Malcolm did feel a little like Dr. Frankenstein. It’s alive! It’s alive!
L-23 was starring at Bob, looking dazed and confused, and somehow managing to blink that blood-filled eye even though there was no apparent eye-lid left to blink with. The two were conversing: ‘Soon I can go back to sleep?’ L-23 asked. The words came muffled through lips that were livid and swollen.
It was then that Malcolm lost control of his bowel.
‘Sure, in a little while,’ Bob said, as though he were talking to a patient who’d come in for a routine check-up. Bob held two fingers to L-23’s wrist while keeping his eyes fixed firmly on his watch.
Just as Bob said these words, L-23’s chin tilted forward and his one good eye rolled back in his head. Bob lowered the lifeless body back on the metal slab and turned to face Malcolm. For the first time Malcolm noticed the beads of sweat on Bob’s brow; he looked like he’d aged at least ten years.
‘How long?’ Malcolm asked.
‘Twenty-six seconds.’
They tried again, of course. In fact they tried countless times with many different corpses over the next few months, increasing the dose with each experiment, but the limit seemed to be thirty seconds. And it never worked more than once on the same subject.
As the Explorer rounded a bend, a wide lake formed where there had been only swamp-grass and paddocks moments earlier; it followed the contours of the road. The moon was a shimmering dime just below its surface.
To be completely honest about the whole thing, not all of their research had been strictly in the name of science.
On one occasion, the subject had been a young man who’d committed suicide by drug overdose following a fierce argument with his mother. The mother had begged them to revive her son, even if only for a few seconds, so she could tell him how much she loved him. ‘I just refuse to let it end this way,’ she told them. ‘And if you have even an ounce of decency in your bodies, you’ll help me.’ So, against their better judgement, they had. Things did not go to plan. This time there was no congenial tête-à-tête like the one Bob had had with L-23. This time, the subject screamed and writhed for the whole thirty seconds as if he were lying on a bed of hot ash instead of a cold metal slab. It took the strength of four lab technicians to hold him down. And each time his mother tried to go near him, he growled and made strange gurgling sounds deep in his throat.
The experiments continued until Phoenix had satisfied itself that, at least for the time being, the research could not be taken any further. And during that time, to be sure, Malcolm had asked many subjects the big question: what had they experienced on the other side? After all, didn’t every question really lead to that one big one? One subject had mumbled something about being surrounded by an empty green field. A few had rambled on about tunnels and bright lights. Yet others shrieked and thrashed about like lunatics the whole time. But most were just confused and incoherent. These were hardly what you would call conclusive answers, but they were enough to keep people from losing complete hope.
A grey hare darted out into the middle of the road and froze in the high-beams. Malcolm’s foot went instinctively to the break pedal, but then he remembered what had happened the last time he braked for something in the middle of the road, and he moved his foot back to the gas. The hare bolted the rest of the way across and disappeared into the scrub.
Ahead, a large, green traffic sign announced that Tranquillity Hill was only twenty miles up the road.
He flicked a glance at the digital clock in the dash. The digits glared back at him like the red eyes of some unnameable monster. 2:43 a.m.
Dawn was just a few hours away.
The final hour was drawing near.
He was but a humble servant.
And he had to prepare himself for what must soon take place.
Tranquillity Hill
Why did cemetery names always sound like old-folks homes? He’d always wondered about that, although the answer seemed pretty fucking obvious: it was because they were a kind of retirement home. But while you might be privileged enough to avoid spending your final days strapped to a chair in a sterile room with linoleum-lined floors—where lunch is served in a cup and the nursing staff strictly enforces the daily-diaper limit of two per resident—there was no dodging the boneyard. At least until someone perfected the formula.
And that wasn’t going to happen.
Not if he could help it.
The serum was an abomination, a modern-day Tower of Babel, built not by slaves but by men in white coats; it was man’s attempt to reach God—or whatever passed for God these days. Worse: it was man’s attempt to become God!
He could see that now.
Tranquillity Hill Cemetery certainly lived up to its name. Malcolm had thought that trudging through a graveyard in the middle of the night would creep him out. But it was, in fact, rather pleasant. A rich perfume clung to the air from the many floral arrangements that decorated the graves. Flames played delicately inside candle-boxes. It was different when one of your own was buried there. The way he saw it, it was like you’d come to visit at the home of a friend or loved one. Though, many might have regarded his intrusion as disrupting the sleep of the dearly—and sometimes unsettled—departed.
Malcolm poked his flashlight in the direction of a grave-marker, which lay at the end of a long row of monuments. As he walked toward it, he thought he could make out the silhouette of a little girl sitting on the grave with her knees tucked under her chin, and he broke out into a cold sweat. Were his eyes playing tricks on him? They were. When he was only a few feet away from the grave, he could see that the hunched figure was in fact a wreath; it was still fresh, although the leaves were a little dry at the edges. The plot, apart from a small patch of heaped earth, the flowers, and a white, wooden cross, was otherwise indistinct in the thick darkness.
Malcolm shone the light on the grave-marker, illuminating the words Janis Mansfield, Aged 3.
He lowered the long baseball bag slung over his shoulder to the ground, and it clanged as it touched the cement walkway. He unzipped it and removed a pick and a shovel.
As it turned out, he had no need for the pick. The dirt was course and it shifted easily. The moon looked on curiously overhead as he dug and dug and dug. It was almost half-past-three by the time the shovel hit wood. He scraped dirt and dust off the top of the coffin and was amazed at how polished it still looked. Wedging his feet on either side of the small casket, he reached down to undo the latches, and then hesitated.
What in God’s name are you doing? a voice in his head demanded. He thought it sounded like Meredith.
Then another voice—this time it was his—whispered, Keep God out of this, bitch! He has nothing to do with it. It was difficult to even comprehend a God that would allow something like this to happen to an innocent child. And yet, something like this happened to thousands—if not hundreds of thousands—of children around the planet each day.
This is wrong, Malcolm! the Meredith voice protested.
‘So is having to bury your child!’ Malcolm shot back, not realising that he’d spoken the words out loud until he heard them tumble from his parched lips. Maybe you should have thought about that before you turned your back on our little girl!
Just the same, he undid the latches on the coffin, but faltered when it came to pulling back the lid. He reached into his back pocket and removed a small flask. He opened it—but not before dropping the cap and having to fumble for it in the dust—and put it to his mouth. Johnnie hit the back of his throat with a comforting vengeance. Then turning his attention to the task at hand, he sucked in two quick breaths, and lifted the lid about five inches.
The head of a dog suddenly flopped out of the casket, one button eye staring dopily up at the canopy of stars.
It was Booker.
They’d buried him with her.
Then he noticed the little fingers clinging limply to the toy’s neck. They were sage-green and mottled, the fingernails pasty and long.
Malcolm’s resolve melted when he saw those tiny fingers. Tears warmed his cheeks. Every ounce of him wanted to open the lid the rest of the way and cradle Janis in his arms, but already a putrid stench—the same ugly reek that road kill gives off when it’s left to bake on the side of the road in the middle of summer—was seeping from the coffin, and he was starting to gag.
Still your nerves, he told himself. The hour is near. It occurred to him, and not for the first time that evening, that he was starting to sound a lot like the religious nut who’d done a number on his windshield back at Phoenix.
Reaching into one of the zippered pockets on the baseball bag, he drew out a small, amber vial. He also removed a hypodermic needle, still wrapped in plastic. He primed the needle and stuck it into what he hoped was Janis’s wrist. It met with almost no resistance.
Malcolm stroked the little hand gently with the back of his own. He was reminded of a python he’d once petted at a wildlife park. The skin on Janis’s hand had that same texture: it felt papery thin; the flesh beneath it was like dough. He tucked the little hand back inside the coffin, making sure that Booker remained firmly in Janis’s grasp.
He closed the lid and sat on it.
He looked impatiently at his watch. Six minutes had gone by and…nothing.
A few minutes later he looked at it again. Still nothing.
Malcolm climbed up out of the grave, dusted his pants and picked up the shovel. He tossed a spade-full of dirt onto the lid.
She was too far gone.
The night was warm and eerily still, as if the crickets and owls were holding their breath.
He tossed another. Sweat droplets speckled the gravelly soil at his feet.
There was no way—
He froze. Did he hear a moan?
Suddenly there was a loud thump and the coffin shook.
He turned, dropped the shovel, and dived back onto the lid. ‘Jan? Is that you?’
There was another loud thump, followed by a yowl and a series of animal-like noises.
‘Honey, it’s your Daddy—’ The stench was getting right up his nose and he draped his left sleeve across his face to stop from gagging. The coffin shook violently and the lid bounced under his weight.
Then it spoke.
But whatever was in there did not speak a word of English.
Malcolm looked at his watch. Sixteen seconds had already gone by. ‘Tell Daddy who did this to you, Jan.’
‘Thaaathy?’ the thing inside the box moaned.
Fresh tears stung his eyes. ‘Who…who hurt you…hon? Daddy needs to know?’ The words seemed to pop in his mouth.
He stole another glance at his watch: twenty-two seconds.
Then the thing spoke for the last time.
It uttered two breathless, but unmistakable, words. That was all he needed.
When the coffin did not bounce again, he reached into his coat-pocket and pulled out the compact-disk. He threw it into the casket and latched it up. With any luck, bull-dozers and tree-loggers would drive the tree-frog into extinction before anyone else could re-discover the special ingredient.
All that mattered now was that Malcolm had his answer.
Head of State
The name printed on the letter box was Robert O’Keefe.
A sensor-light greeted Malcolm as he pulled up behind the Chrysler. He stepped out of the Explorer and made his way to the front door.
He rang the door-bell.
It seemed like a long time before he heard the key turn on the opposite side of the door. ‘Gees, Mal! Do you know what time this is?’ Bob said. He was dressed only in pyjama bottoms and he was squinting at the light.
‘Were you sleeping?’ Mal asked. His hair hung in wet ringlets over his brow; there were patches of sweat under each armpit.
Bob shook his head. ‘No, I was baking muffins. Of course I was sleeping. It’s almost five o’clock.’ Then Bob took a step back. ‘You okay?’
‘Yeah,’ Malcolm lied. In the hills behind him, a sliver of champagne was already creeping across the horizon.
‘Well you sure don’t look it.’ Bob said. ‘Come in. I’ll put a pot of coffee on the stove. You’d better tell me what the hell’s going on.’
‘Then you better make it something stronger.’
When the two were seated on the living-room recliners, Bob handed Malcolm a watered-down scotch. He examined the dirt smeared across Malcolm’s face and frowned. ‘Man, you need to see a professional. What the hell have you been doing?’
Malcolm drank from the glass, gripping it firmly to hide the tremor in his hands. He put the glass down on the coffee table and kept his eyes level with his feet. When he finally looked up, he said. ‘It’s got to stop.’
‘What does?’
‘This whole thing,’ he said. ‘It’s criminal and it’s wrong.’
‘You talking about the serum?’
Malcolm nodded. ‘I’ve already gotten rid of the disk.’
‘Have you gone completely mad?!’ Bob said, rising from his chair.
Malcolm laughed. It was almost a giggle. ‘Probably a little,’ he admitted.
‘They’ll just reverse-engineer the stuff from the vials back at the lab.’
‘All down the sink,’ Malcolm said, shaking his head. ‘It ends with us.’
Bob made for the phone. Malcolm stood up and pushed him back into the recliner with a strength that surprised even him; then he reached into his coat pocket and removed an object wrapped in black fabric.
‘What are you doing?’ Bob asked, suspiciously.
‘I paid a visit to the cemetery a little while ago.’ Malcolm let the cloth fall to the carpet, exposing the .38. ‘Had a short chat with Jan—’
‘What are you on about—?’
‘—a very short chat,’ Malcolm said, as he reached into his trouser-pocket and pulled out three gleaming bullets. ‘About thirty seconds, actually.’
Bob’s jaw fell open as the penny dropped. ‘You’re insane!’
He slid a single shell into the revolver and closed the chamber. ‘I thought we’d already established that.’
‘Look,’ Bob said. ‘I…I just.’ His Adam’s-apple bobbed up and down in his throat and the blood visibly drained from his face.’
‘I know you did it, Unky Bob!’ Malcolm levelled the .38 at Bob’s head, but his hand was pulsing with raw emotion and he was having considerable trouble keeping it steady. ‘She loved you like a second father, you sick prick! She trusted you!’
‘I didn’t plan it, Mal. I…I just—something came over me…something I couldn’t control. Bringing people back to life was like a drug, you know? And…’ Bob averted his gaze. ‘And I guess I just wanted to know what it felt like to take someone’s life. I know it sounds crazy, but once the idea was there…’
‘And so you chose my child, you bastard!’ Spit flew from Malcolm’s mouth as he said this.
‘Well, you stole Meredith from me!’ Bob blurted.
‘Meredith?’ Malcolm repeated, in utter disbelief. Bob was clutching at straws. ‘That was twenty-five years ago. And I didn’t steal her. You guys were long over.’ Bob looked away, his Adam’s-apple continuing its frantic dance. A strange dullness in Bob’s eyes betrayed him, and Malcolm knew instantly that there was something Bob was holding back. Malcolm’s eyes narrowed: ‘This wasn’t just some psychopathic delusion you were living out…Janis walked in on the two of you, didn’t she?’
There was that flat, dull look again. ‘Meredith had nothing to do with it. She didn’t know—’
The butt of the .38 struck Bob on the left temple with a nauseating thud.
Bob spluttered; his eyes blazed momentarily, before the darkness returned to douse the flames: ‘That should have been my family—that was my life you were living! The way I see it, I only took what was rightfully mine.’
The barrel moved closer to Bob’s brow, forcing his head back against the recliner and Bob’s nostril’s flared from the smell of gun oil. ‘It’s okay, Unky Bob, I promise to show you more mercy than you showed Janis.’
‘Who made you God?’ Bob shrieked, squinting as the muzzle bit deeper into his skin.
‘No-one,’ Malcolm said. ‘But I’ve just promoted myself to Head of State.’ The .38 barked once and the wall behind the recliner filled with blood-splatter.
Chest heaving, Malcolm looked down at the remaining two shells clenched tightly in the palm of his hand. He intended to use one of them on himself, of that he had no doubt.
As for the other? Well … he should be heading home now.
After all, Meredith needed him.
Meredith who’d taken Janis to the mall.
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Suckpuppies
March 26, 2010 by Publisher · 3 Comments
Manakey was the worst case I had ever seen, but he probably started out like most. Maybe he was taking a stroll through the park. He would have been careful. Everyone these days is careful, ever since the first suckpuppies appeared from wherever they came from. But what if it was a fine spring day? Buds on the trees. Lovers on blankets. Manakey would have let his guard down. It happens, even to the most cautious among us.
He probably never felt the slimy body of the suckpuppy as it raced up his ankle and latched on, releasing its instant euphoria juice. And moments later the fine spring day would have been replaced with something even finer. The park would have suddenly looked like the Amazon jungle, bright and green enough to hurt his eyes, birds like brightly-colored parrots instead of dull, gray sparrows.
That’s how they do it, of course. Suckpuppies hit you with the good stuff at first. They make the world seem like the most wonderful place – so wonderful that you don’t even notice that something has attached to your skin, something that looks like a beet-red, marble-sized bruise. In the days and weeks to come it grows, slowly, steadily, filling up with your blood. It begins to reproduce, making more little suckpuppies inside itself, outer membrane stretching like a water balloon until it’s the size of a rotten apple, filled with a colony of squirming suckpuppies. And you don’t even know it’s there.
How can that be? That’s the million dollar question. No one has been able to figure out why people with suckpuppies are incapable of seeing them, even on their own bodies. Where there’s an ugly growth, they’ll see smooth, unblemished skin. The best guess is that it’s some sort of hallucinatory response, a sort of selective blindness. Some claim it’s a vast, alien conspiracy, gaining control of one human mind at a time, until it eventually controls the whole world. But I think that’s ridiculous, of course. I’m a doctor.
But suckpuppies can play your brain like a violin. One minute you’re convinced everything is positively excellent and the next minute it’s dismally awful; people with suckpuppies make bi-polar disorder look like stoicism. And worst of all, when anyone pokes around a victim’s body and tries to remove the suckpuppy, it brings on the mother of all panic attacks. And then rage, the kind of rage that could drive someone to kill his own family. There have been cases where that has happened.
So what about Manakey? As I said, he was the worst. A suckpuppy had been on him a very long time – probably three or four years. It had migrated up his body, growing larger and larger, looking for fresh places to get blood. It had settled onto his back and by the time they finally brought him in out of a thunderstorm at 2 AM that August night, it was the size of a cocker spaniel. How many suckpuppies were in the colony squirming around in that sack? Maybe a thousand. And Manakey was oblivious to it all, even though he had been walking around like Quasimodo.
I sincerely don’t know how he managed to avoid detection for so long, but he had. He must have hidden away from the world until someone, maybe a family member, had finally turned him in. As the sheriff and a couple of patrolmen dragged him in out of the rain that night, his eyes were wild, darting left and right in sheer, uncontrolled panic. He struggled like a trapped lion, grinding his teeth as three orderlies strapped him face-down on a gurney.
“Let me go!” he cried. “There’s nothing wrong with me!”
His t-shirt was rain-soaked and I could see the suckpuppy pulse and writhe beneath the wet fabric. Thunder crashed outside the automatic doors down the hall. The lights flickered.
“What do ya’ wanna do, Doc?” asked the sheriff, breathing hard. “Should we call for a helicopter so they can take him into City Hospital? He’s a pretty bad case.”
I hissed through my teeth. I hate City Hospital. I started my career there. All the great ones do. But I ran into a wall of politics and they booted me out. And I’d be damned if I was gonna authorize a helicopter to come out all the way from the city just so they could take a patient away from me.
“We’ll take care of him here,” I said.
The sheriff looked at me sideways. I was hoping he didn’t know all the rules about suckpuppies. They’d been a problem in the cities for quite a while now, but there hadn’t been many reports of them way out here in the sticks.
“I said, I’ll take care of him here,” I repeated.
The sheriff paused for a moment. “Suit yourself,” he said and then turned to go, the two patrolmen following. I wondered how many laws I was breaking.
I turned back to Manakey, who was squirming against the straps.
“You’ve got a growth,” I said gently. “We’re going to remove it and you’ll be just fine.” I used the most soothing voice I could muster, but God knows I was having a hard time holding back my revulsion. And I was questioning my decision to treat him here. We weren’t really set up for this. We had no protective suits like in the city, no sealed operating rooms, nothing. But we had me – the best surgeon this little piss-ant hospital ever had and I knew I could get the job done. I’d removed three here already, after all, although they had been a whole lot smaller than this one.
The nurses gathered around as the orderlies transferred Manakey to the table in the small operating room, strapping him down as tightly as they could. No one liked this particular, nasty job. John Bannerman, an intern assigned to me for the graveyard shift that semester, was looking like he was reconsidering his decision to become a doctor in the first place.
It’s a very delicate operation, taking off a suckpuppy. If you mess up, you can cause the entire sack to burst apart, splashing quarts of blood in all directions and scattering small suckpuppies everywhere, squeaking like a litter of newborn German shepherds, looking for bare skin to latch onto. And they usually find it of course, because above all else, suckpuppies are lightning quick. That’s why they wear protective suits at City Hospital. But we didn’t have any of those.
Manakey, of course, wasn’t thinking about any of this. He squirmed against the restraints and turned his head as far as he could, trying to see us as we prepped. He cursed us with some of the foulest language I’ve ever heard, and then he began to weep.
“It’s okay,” I said gently. “We’re going to fix you right up.”
I gritted my teeth and wished desperately for an anesthesiologist. But that was impossible, because at the first hint of anesthesia or IV solutions of any kind, suckpuppies release a chemical into their host’s bloodstream that sends them into violent seizures, causing death within seconds. Then you’re left with a live suckpuppy slithering away from the corpse of the patient you were supposed to be saving. It’s as if suckpuppies know what’s going to happen when you introduce any foreign substance into the bloodstream. But if you can remove the sack surgically, very carefully, without anesthesia, they go quietly and the patient will live. As long as you don’t make a mistake.
I took my scalpel and sliced into Manakey’s damp t-shirt. I made a circle around the pulsating lump and peeled back the fabric. There was a collective intake of breath in the close air of the room. The suckpuppy looked like a huge, pulsating beet, and the outside membrane heaved and rolled in waves, stretching tighter as the things inside busily reproduced themselves. Over the top of the sterile, hospital smell, I smelled the cloying, heavy odor of old blood. And in the stone quiet of the operating room, I could actually hear muffled squeaking and mewling from inside the sac. As a surgeon I’ve seen almost everything, but right about then I wanted to vomit.
Thunder crashed in the dark night outside and the light above the table flickered again.
“Where’s the auxiliary power?” I asked no one in particular.
“It doesn’t seem to be kicking in,” answered Bannerman. “Maybe we should wait until the storm passes.” His voice quavered.
“No,” I said, steadying myself. “The longer we wait, the more agitated the patient will become. We need to get this over with.”
I raised the scalpel in the flickering light. Thunder crashed again, closer this time. The lights winked out for a full second before coming back on. I began to sweat and a nurse swabbed my forehead. I cursed under my breath at the cheap bastards who ran this poor excuse for a hospital. You’d think they could at least make sure the lights stayed on during surgery.
I cut into Manakey’s skin, making an incision just below the neck, approximately one centimeter from the edge of the suckpuppy. Manakey began to scream and squirm violently, but the straps held him tight. Blood flowed around my scalpel. I could hear Bannerman’s raspy breathing in my ear as he looked on.
I continued my smooth, even cut around the outer edge of the suckpuppy, carefully skirting the membrane. I followed it around to the bottom, just above the buttocks, and then back up the other side. There was a great deal of blood by now and Manakey was nearly out of his mind, screaming obscenities. I could only hope that the pain would make him pass out soon. I completed the oval-shaped cut and backed away for a moment. The lights flickered again several times.
Now came the hardest part. Suckpuppies anchor themselves just under the epidermal layer of the skin. I would have to carve down below that layer, beneath the membrane, trying not to go too deep, but also making sure I didn’t go too shallow and cut the thing open. If I was successful, the entire suckpuppy would come away in one piece, with a thin layer of Manakey’s skin attached to the bottom of it, keeping it sealed, and we could destroy it in the portable incinerator waiting in the hallway. Then would come the time-consuming process of repairing the damage to the patient, in this case, a huge job. But the thing I was about to do, the carving underneath the suckpuppy, was the most dangerous procedure. I gritted my teeth and bent down.
I cut deeper into Manakey. Unbelievably, he was still conscious, screaming in agony.
“Hold him still,” I hissed, because the patient’s back muscles were moving in spasms and my incision was getting ragged.
The orderlies pulled the straps even tighter. I moved the scalpel deeper, going round and round, farther under the suckpuppy. It reminded me of carving a pumpkin at Halloween. But I made quick, steady progress in the flickering light. Soon I was nearly done.
Manakey suddenly stopped squirming and went quiet. I looked up, scalpel still buried. There was a moment of tense silence. Then Manakey shrieked like a banshee, just as a flash of lightning struck the driveway outside the doors down the hall, an answering clap of thunder snapping at the same instant. I inadvertently jerked up with the scalpel. And that’s when the lights went out. And they didn’t come back on.
What happened next? I’ve been asking myself that ever since. I seem to remember an explosive, squishing sound, like the sound a watermelon makes when you throw it down hard on the sidewalk. Then I think I heard squeaking from down on the floor, like a pack of rats would make. Manakey stopped screaming as if someone had put a gag in his mouth.
I know that I said something then. Maybe I swore. I simply can’t remember. But with the lights going out, and me saying something that told everyone in the room that I had messed up, there was instant panic. I must have panicked myself. I thought I felt something crawling up my leg. Or did I imagine that? In the pitch dark it was hard to know what was going on. Nurses were shrieking. Bannerman gripped my arm. And then he suddenly let go.
And then, for no good reason, a peace came over me. I knew everything was going to be all right. I remembered that I was a doctor. A damned good doctor. I was trained for life-threatening situations like this. I was in charge here and it was up to me to make things right, to calm the others down. It was marvelous how my mind focused, just when I needed it most. I took a deep breath.
“Everyone, stay where you are,” I said, using the Voice Of Authority they taught us in medical school. “Everything is going to be fine.”
Within seconds the others responded and quieted down. I listened. I heard just the heavy sounds of breathing from all of us gathered around the table.
And then I knew. In the dark and confusion of moments earlier, I had imagined those other sounds. Of course I had. My mind had taken my worst imaginings and made them seem like real sounds. A mind can do that to you. I’ve seen it many times. I’m a doctor.
I don’t know how long we all stood there in the dark. It could have been five minutes or more. But finally the lights came on.
I squinted and blinked against the glare until my eyes adjusted. I looked down at the table. Manakey lay there, unmoving. He didn’t appear to be breathing. Most of the skin of his back was missing and the suckpuppy was gone. I looked down at the floor. It was covered with blood. I instinctively lifted one foot and then the other, trying to keep from standing there in all that blood.
“Doctor?” said Bannerman.
“Yes?” I answered.
“Good job, Doctor.”
“What?” I asked.
“The suckpuppy. You got it all off in one piece. I was able to put it into the incinerator while the lights were out.”
“Thank you, Bannerman,” I said in relief. “Excellent work. But what about the patient?”
“He’s dead.”
I reached for Manakey’s neck and felt for a pulse. There was none.
“At least we got the suckpuppy,” I said. “That’s the important part.”
The others muttered their assent. We had destroyed that pulsating, throbbing monster. And if Manakey hadn’t made it through, that was one of those regrettable things that doctors sometimes have to face. We all filed out of the hospital room and cleaned the blood off. I remember laughing and joking with the nurses. And I went home feeling good.
****
And since then? As I write this, watching the snow fall outside my window, I confess I’ve thought about that night a lot. I don’t go out much anymore so I have a lot of time to think. Did I really finish cutting before the lights went out? My mind tells me I did, but late at night I sometimes get a nagging feeling that maybe things didn’t work out so well. And in my worst moments I have questions. Questions about how Bannerman could have gotten the suckpuppy into the incinerator so quickly, in the dark. And sometimes I wonder why Manakey died if I was so successful at removing the suckpuppy.
But most of the time I feel remarkably good.
I’ve never gone back to the hospital. That night with Manakey was the last straw. My talents are wasted at a place like that. If they’re going to be too cheap to supply me with the proper facilities to practice medicine then they can shove it. They called here for a while but I didn’t answer the phone. I don’t answer the door either, except for deliveries from the store. After the horror of Manakey, I don’t want to take a chance on picking up a suckpuppy. So I stay home. This is a very small town and there have been several suckpuppies, including the one that got Manakey. And if there are more, the whole town might be infected by now. But not me.
At first I wondered if I actually got one that night. I’ve examined myself in the mirror several times, all over. I’d be able to see something if it was there. There is nothing there. Nothing at all. I know about that hallucination thing, but I’m a doctor. I’d be able to tell.
Oh, I get a little lonesome sometimes. I even looked up Bannerman’s number once and called to see how his studies were going, but there was no answer.
And I do have dreams. Nightmares, really. Nightmares where the world is full of squirming, blood-red, alien creatures, crawling into every nook and cranny on Earth. But then I wake up and everything is as fine as a summer day.
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Forever My Baby
January 15, 2010 by Publisher · Leave a Comment
The figure darted out of the shadows so quickly I barely had time to push my wife behind me. Skeletal fingers thrust a bundle of rags towards my face.
I stared at the old woman beneath the hood of the dirty coat, saw mad, feverish eyes in a sunken, shriveled face, a sneering mouth revealing rotting teeth.
‘Get away from us – ‘
‘You want something; I got something for ya!’
Melanie, my wife, screamed, and in disgust I swung a fist at the old hag. It connected with the side of her face with a hollow thud and she stumbled away, wailing in pain. The bundle fell to the ground, and over my wife’s screaming I thought I heard a baby’s cry.
‘Come on!’ I shouted, pulling my wife away, and together we hurried away from the clinic. Where the road intersected with a large street I hailed a cab and gratefully pushed my wife inside.
I looked out of the window as we pulled away, and I saw the old woman there, on the steps of the Waker & Co Private Maternity Clinic, on her hands and knees, scrambling towards her fallen bundle.
Part of me felt ashamed of myself, but another part of me wished I’d done worse – that I’d hit her harder, hard enough that she would never get up again. Only my education told me to feel remorse – the woman had been like a witch out of a nightmare, but what she had offered me had been worse.
My eyes closed as I remembered what I thought I’d seen there as she pushed it into my face, and I felt a shiver run down my back.
The porcelain face of a doll, with eyes that moved like a real child.
#
I didn’t talk to Melanie about the incident over the next few days. The pressure of the decision she had to make was hard enough, and I knew that whatever happened, the finality of it all would rest with her, the mother. She had to carry the child, and while of course it was half mine, I knew that the mother feels a certain connection with a child that a father never does. Those long, tiring hours by her bedside in the hospital after the death of our second son were testament to that. That I could still function, still work, still look after myself, while she lay there like a corpse, barely responding, was all the proof I needed.
‘Is it natural?’ she asked me, as we lay in bed a few nights later, for perhaps the thousandth time. ‘Are we right to play God?’
You, I wanted to say. This is all for you. If I thought that losing another might not kill you, I’d never even consider it. Instead, I said, ‘We must do what’s best for the child.’
At this she nodded, her eyes growing misty, and I knew I was losing her. Since she’d seen the advertisement for the clinic and we’d been to talk to the doctors, the idea had slowly filtered into her mind and her heart, where it had taken hold and wouldn’t let go. It didn’t matter what I said anymore; she barely heard me. But because I loved her, I would do anything to make her happy.
‘He’ll be safe,’ she whispered, closing her eyes and rolling over, as though the very thought comforted her. I listened as her breathing started to slow. The last thing she said before she fell asleep was: ‘I can protect him. Forever.’
Lying on my back, looking up at the faint outline of the light fitting in the darkness, the same dark thought returned. But we don’t have forever.
#
‘You choose,’ the consultant, Dr. Millar, told us that day, as I sat beside Melanie in his office. Melanie had one hand over her belly, not yet showing signs of the child growing inside.
‘Any age?’ I said.
‘Yes. But we believe that the process is really only worthwhile if you want your child to stay between one and three years old. This is all about keeping them safe, of course, and statistics show that a child between the ages of five and ten is at most risk from naturally recurring dangers.’
Melanie shifted in the seat beside me. Her hand rubbed up and down, as though the cluster of developing cells that would one day become our third child needing soothing against the world already. ‘Eighteen months,’ she said. ‘I want him to stay eighteen months old.’
We didn’t yet know the sex of our child, at least not officially. Melanie, though, had possessed some sixth sense that I didn’t, and a few days after that conversation a regular doctor would confirm it.
Dr. Millar nodded. ‘Eighteen months is a good age, I think. The treatment is expensive, of course, but over time there are financial benefits. The child won’t require regular new sizes of clothing, and if it no longer grows then its appetite will be less, of course.’
I felt a sick feeling in my stomach. Beside me, Melanie was leaning forward, nodding.
Dr. Millar made some notes on a piece of paper. ‘There are a lot of forms to fill in, of course. And we require the consent of both parents before the procedure can be fully authorized . . .’
Melanie looked at me, and the eagerness on her face made my heart ache. ‘Yes, eighteen months is a good age. He’ll be safe this time, won’t he, John?’
I nodded, and forced a smile, wanting to scream.
#
Melanie was set, but a week before the procedure was due to take place, I still had too many questions of my own. I took a couple of hours off work and caught the bus downtown to Waker & Co, hoping for a few minutes alone with Dr. Millar. Sitting with my head against the window as we passed the rank chaos of the streets in this part of town, I couldn’t help but think about my other two sons. At forty-four years old, the thought of a third was hard enough to bear on its own, as if I didn’t feel like I was trying to make something up to Melanie. If this would repair her I would do it, but I could never shake the sense of regret I felt that it had come this far. After all, if it wasn’t for me, at least one of our sons would still be alive.
Steven’s death had been beyond our control. The car that had hit him as he walked home from school, barely a week past his sixteenth birthday, had been driven by a woman tailed by police for running a stoplight. Steven had stepped onto a crossing and been mown down, the woman barely pausing as he bumped under the wheels. Minutes later she’d been killed when the car hit a truck as she ran yet another light. Police on the vehicle’s tail had pulled her from the burning car to die at the roadside, but Steven, lying back down the road, had been made to wait until the chase was over. Later, a doctor would confide in us that he could have been saved had someone with first aid experience been on hand to administer emergency treatment. One of the police in that car had been a medical officer. Our son was dead because they’d chosen to follow the fugitive to her eventual fiery death rather than tend to my son.
Will, our second son and the second to die, was waiting in the lobby of a high street bank for me to pick him up. It was raining, otherwise he might have been outside on the street, but I was late so he was sheltering inside. Three men got out of a car and marched inside, shotguns pulled on all the customers. My son was herded into a back room with the others. Police arriving on the scene had trapped the gunmen inside, and a hostage situation had ensured. One man would die every thirty minutes if demands weren’t met, the gunmen told police. After one hour, my son was the second man they killed, shot in the back of the head like a cow being slaughtered for meat. His face had been unidentifiable; I’d identified him by his clothes.
That a SWAT team had later stormed the bank and taken out the gunmen without further casualties was irrelevant. Will was already dead.
I got off the bus around the corner from the clinic, and walked the rest of the way with my head hung heavy. Would it really be as the consultant said? Would our son stay young and healthy where Melanie could keep him safe from the darkening world outside? I thought about the old woman, about the eyes staring out at me from the bundle. Glassy, dead eyes, but eyes that moved nonetheless. I looked around for her as I reached the clinic, but she was nowhere to be seen.
‘Is Doctor Millar free?’ I asked the receptionist inside. The young man behind the desk told me to take a seat, he’d see. I sat down in a corner of the waiting room, looking around at the pictures on the walls that attempted to ease concerns and lighten moods: smiling babies, smiling parents with smiling babies, smiling parents and smiling babies taking picnics and country walks. Beside me on the seat were two young couples; from the worry on their faces I could tell the pictures made little impression at all.
‘Mr. Morgan?’
I looked up. Dr. Millar was standing in the doorway of his office.
‘Mr. Morgan, I have a few free minutes if you would care to come inside.’
‘Yes, thank you.’ I stood up. As I followed him I glanced back at the other people. Their faces looked as glum and taut with indecision as before.
Seated inside his office, I said, ‘Are you sure these procedures are safe for Melanie and the baby?’ I rubbed my forehead, squeezing my eyes shut. ‘I have terrible doubts about all this.’
Dr. Millar leaned forward, his hands steepled on the desk in front of him. ‘Many do, Mr. Morgan, I’ll tell you no lie about that. But I can assure you these procedures are perfectly safe. No woman has ever suffered physical ill effects. And no baby has ever been harmed.’
‘Yes, but, is it ethical?’
Dr. Millar leaned forward again, until he was so close I could smell the warm aroma of cinnamon tea on his breath. ‘Mr. Morgan, last weekend a bus of tourists heading for Stonehenge was hijacked just outside of London. The hijackers shot all forty-six passengers dead, before making off with their luggage. Was that ethical? It’s a harsh world we live in, Mr. Morgan. All we do here at Waker & Co is offer some people the chance to have better lives.’
We talked for a while longer, but I left feeling about as undecided as when I’d come. Outside, I found darkness had fallen and a light rain hung in the air as I made my way back towards the bus stop. I was so lost in my thoughts that I had to pause a moment at the end of the street to decide whether I needed to turn left or right, and as I did so, a woman wearing a thick raincoat hurried past me back in the direction of the clinic.
Normally I wouldn’t have thought twice about it, except that the woman had been sobbing loud enough for me to hear. I turned to watch her. Already fifty feet past me, she broke into a light jog, only slowing a few yards from the clinic’s entrance.
She stopped and leaned down, putting something down on the front step. She said something I couldn’t hear, and then turned and hurried off down a side street.
On the step the bundle waited. I hesitated just a moment before breaking into a run, but by the time I got there the woman was out of sight.
I looked down at the ground. A little round face peered up at me from the folds of a blanket, its skin shiny and slick from the rain.
‘Oh my God . . .’
I leaned down and picked the child up, pulling it towards me. As I did so, though, its mouth opened and what I could only describe as a growl escaped. I held it away from me in horror, and it was then that I noticed the way its skin seemed hard and brittle, the water pooling in cracks on its cheeks as though it had been baked in the sun. The eyes rolled towards me, older than the eyes of any child, but it wasn’t until a little hand reached out of the folds of the blanket and began to claw at my wrist with fingers stronger than any baby’s should be, that I dropped the child and fell back, gasping in horror.
The bundle of blankets rolled away from me, and a moment later I saw the baby emerge out, its little hands clawing at the air as it began to crawl in my direction. Terrified by its snarling, cracked face, I started to back away, only then realizing that someone else had appeared, someone dressed in rags and stooped low to the ground.
The old woman.
A crone’s face peered out from under a dirty hood as she reached down and hauled up the crawling infant. Still it reached for me, its eyes narrowing, that same hideous growling coming from deep in its throat.
‘Wan’ ‘im, do ya? Wan’ ‘im for keeps?’
‘Get away from me!’
The old woman began to cackle as she wrapped up the struggling baby and hurried off down a side street. I watched her go, the implications of what I had seen only just starting to become clear.
I had to follow her. The baby’s mother had abandoned him on the steps of the clinic, and the old woman had taken him away, monster though he was. Regardless of the reasons, it amounted to kidnapping.
By the time I got to the first turn in the street, though, she was long gone.
#
The nightmares of that baby and the old crone kept me awake for most of the next week. Melanie could sense something was wrong, but I did my best to hide my despair from her, and I never talked about what I had seen. My wife, though, seemed to gain strength and purpose, until, a couple of weeks later, she told me she’d made her decision.
‘I want the procedure done,’ she said, smiling confidently for the first time in years, it seemed. ‘I can look after my baby, and no one can ever take him from me like they did Steven and Will.’
I nodded. For a moment words failed me, and Melanie picked up on it with hawk’s speed.
‘What is it? Are you having second thoughts now?’
I shook my head, searching for a lie. ‘No, of course not. I’m just relieved to see you look so happy. When do you want the procedure done?’
Melanie was nearing the end of her first trimester. Dr. Millar had told us that the procedure could be performed as late as the end of the second, but earlier was better. Melanie’s answer was the one I’d most feared: ‘As soon as possible.’
#
I couldn’t shift the doubts. And worse, I had suspicions that everything wasn’t as straight forward as it seemed. I went back there again the following evening, after telling Melanie I had a late business meeting. At the rear of Waker & Co I found the staff parking lot, and I hung out there, waiting for Dr. Millar to finish.
It was a quarter past eight when the back door of the building opened and the doctor came out.
He was understandably shocked to see me. His words maintained a measure of professionalism, but there was a guarded, suspicious look in his eyes, and he made a clear attempt to keep a car between us.
‘Jesus, you scared me, Mr. Morgan. I’m sorry, but I’m off duty now; you’ll have to make an appointment for tomorrow.’
‘Doctor, I need to talk to you. Yesterday I saw someone come to the clinic. There was an old woman . . .’ even now I couldn’t bear to mention the child.
His eyes narrowed. ‘What woman?’
I couldn’t bring myself to say the words. ‘Oh God, I – ‘
Dr. Millar had pulled open his car door. ‘Maybe your wife shouldn’t go through with this, Mr. Morgan. It would hardly be wise with you in such an uncertain state of mind. Now, good night to you.’
I was left standing in the parking lot as the doctor’s car sped off. I felt stupid and helpless, and more certain than ever that we should never go within a mile of that place again. But Melanie . . . Melanie was so happy.
#
I tried to talk to her, but she’d made up her mind. The way she looked at me when I told her I was having second thoughts made my cheeks redden with shame.
‘We have two dead sons, John,’ she told me. ‘Two. I will not watch another son suffer in this brutal world. I want him where I can protect him.’
‘We can go away,’ I pleaded. ‘Find somewhere safer to bring him up.’
‘Nowhere is safe,’ she said. ‘Nowhere.’
‘Then why have him at all!’ I shouted before I could help myself. Melanie ran out of the room, tears streaming down her cheeks. I felt my heart cracking in my chest, but nothing would make me feel any better without getting answers. But if Dr. Millar wouldn’t give me any, I didn’t have any hope but to stake out the clinic and wait for the old woman. But I had no idea how long that would take. Unless . . .
#
I felt ridiculous as I hurried down the street, carrying a bundle of blankets in my arms, the lifeless face of the plastic doll peering up at me in a permanent pout. I tried to stoop lower to disguise my height, and a couple of times I reached up to pull my hood down further to cover my face. Anyone looking closely would see through my disguise in an instant, but it was dark, a light rain was falling, and the street lights hung confusing shadows everywhere.
I put the doll in its blankets down on the step of the building and hurried away down a side street. No more than fifty yards in though, I ducked back into a doorway and crouched down. If she was watching the clinic as I felt sure she was, I wouldn’t have to wait long.
I was right. No more than five minutes passed before a hunched figure emerged from the shadows of the street opposite. The old woman glanced about as she approached the step, but I squeezed tight into the doorway and I was certain she couldn’t see me. As I peered back out I saw her reach down and pick up the bundle I had left.
I fully expected her to fling it down and walk away. I wasn’t trying to trick her, merely flush her from hiding and then attempt to follow her, but as I watched she lifted the bundle in her arms and began to coo softly at the doll as though it were a living child.
‘There there,’ I heard her say. ‘Safe now, you are. Safe with Auntie Casey.’
So, at the least I had a name, but, it was quite clear that the old woman was completely insane. And myself? How could I label her crazy when I doubted my own sanity? Twice I was sure I’d seen a child with the woman, so sure I hadn’t even doubted it until now. Melanie had seen the old woman, but she had told me after that she’d not seen inside the bundle. It was perfectly possible Melanie had been unable to see the baby, but it still meant I had no proof other than my own eyes. And here I was watching an old woman coo and whisper soothing words to a plastic doll.
She moved off, heading down the street towards me. I ducked into the doorway and hunched down, the hood pulled over my head. If she looked in my direction I would resemble a drunk or a tramp.
I heard her cooing still as she walked past. When I looked up, she was some fifty yards down the street, and I got up and followed quietly, keeping to the shadows.
For several streets I trailed her. The night had closed in and the rain had grown heavier. I had no idea where she was leading me, but as we came into an older, partly abandoned industrial area, I tried to get closer, aware that she could disappear into any one of numerous doorways along the street side.
Ahead of me she turned a sharp corner and I hurried to catch up. As I followed her round I found her standing in an alleyway waiting for me, the doll hung limp in her fingers.
‘Thinks I’m crazy but I ain’t no crazy,’ she cackled. ‘Thinks you can trick old Casey, foolish man.’
My cheeks colored despite the rain. ‘Who the hell are you?’
She threw the doll to the ground. ‘Why you follow me, man?’
‘Where did you take that baby? I saw you take it. And the other one you had. Where did you take them?’
I took a step forward in earnest, and the woman stepped forward to meet me. ‘Sooner or later they all come back,’ she said. ‘Who takes care of them then?’
I guessed she was about to answer her own question, but suddenly she turned and started up the alleyway, leaving me standing in shock with only the doll for company. It took me a moment to find my voice. ‘Where are you going?’ I shouted.
The old woman stopped and slowly turned round.
I couldn’t be sure under the shadows, but I thought she might be smiling. ‘I’m goin’ t’ Hell,’ she said. ‘Best not be following me no more.’
I watched until she was gone, my legs frozen to the spot.
#
I drank myself to sleep for the next couple of nights, unable to forget the woman’s words. I hid the worst of my misery from Melanie, coming home late under the pretense of overtime at the office, and doing the bulk of my drinking after she was asleep. The old woman haunted me, as did the baby I had seen. Sometimes though, Dr. Millar made an appearance in my nightmares too, and once, the time that made up my mind, I saw Melanie, holding a child in her arms. Except that when I approached, I saw there was no baby there at all, but a charred, black thing which raised its smoldering head as I approached and growled like some kind of animal.
‘I don’t want you to go through with this,’ I said over breakfast, my head pounding from the half liter of whiskey I’d drank the night before, after Melanie had gone to bed. ‘It’s not right, deciding the child’s future like this. And I don’t trust those people at Waker. I don’t trust them at all.’
Melanie stared at me. ‘I thought we’d decided! I thought we’d made the decision together!’
‘I’m sorry; I’ve had second thoughts.’
‘But you can’t! What about our baby? Do you want what happened to Steven and Will to happen to this baby too? The world’s a nasty, dangerous place; I don’t want to lose another son!’
‘That wasn’t our fault!’ I shouted. ‘What happened to our sons was out of our control!’
Melanie just stared at me, and I could see from her eyes that she disagreed. ‘Whatever you say,’ she said, looking down at the table.
I got up and went out without another word. Will’s death was not my fault, I told myself over and over again. Yet Melanie believed it, and the facts were there. Ten minutes I’d lingered back at work, ten minutes to send a fax that could have waited until the next day. Ten minutes wasted, ten minutes that meant my son died.
It was raining outside, and I looked up at the sky, wanting the rain to cover my tears.
#
I was drunk when I got to Waker & Co, the pain I felt boiling over and leaving me out of control of my emotions. I could see lights on inside, and found the doctor’s car in the same parking lot as before. I had a vague plan to break into his car and hide in the back seat, but as I tried to force the door I succeeded only in setting off a loud car alarm. Staggering away, I’d done no more than get halfway across the parking lot when a back door in the building opened and Dr. Millar came running out.
Behind him were two other members of staff, a woman I remembered from reception, and a security guard. So much for a private confrontation with the doctor; this was going from bad to worse.
‘Get away from the car, sir,’ the security guard shouted. He approached me warily, hands apart.
‘I want answers,’ I said.
The security guard glanced over his shoulder at Dr. Millar. The doctor nodded. ‘He’s a customer.’
‘What do you want me to do with him?’
‘Who’s Casey?’ I screamed at them, almost falling to the ground with the effort.
The woman gasped. Even the security guard looked shocked.
Dr. Millar stepped forward. ‘I think you’d better come inside, Mr. Morgan,’ he said.
#
They led me into a small recreation room. There was a TV in one corner next to a shelf of books and magazines. Near the door was a vending machine for drinks and one for hot snacks. Dr. Millar told me to sit on a sofa against one wall while he pulled up a chair facing me.
‘How do you know about Casey?’ he asked me.
I nodded. My head spun and my stomach felt queasy. ‘Outside. I saw her.’
Dr. Millar looked angry. ‘Damn that woman,’ he said. ‘We pass her off as a vagrant if anyone asks. I take it you spoke to her?’
‘How else do you think I got her name? Now tell me who the hell she is!’
Dr. Millar shrugged. ‘She used to work here. Years ago, back in the early days, long before I ever came here.’
‘And?’
‘She was a doctor.’ He looked pained for a moment. ‘We have a rule in the medical profession, Mr. Morgan, never to get too attached to our patients. Casey broke that rule.’
‘People bring them back, don’t they?’ I said, glaring at Dr. Millar. ‘After the procedure, people bring them back. And the reason she’s still there, the reason you haven’t had her moved on, or worse, is because she cleans up your mess.’
Dr. Millar stood up. ‘You’re implying things I don’t think you want to imply, Mr. Morgan. I think our business is done here.’
I leapt up from the chair as he backed away across the room. I grabbed his coat and pulled him forward, swinging a fist up into his face. He grunted and tried to cry out but as he fell to the floor I darted forward and flicked the lock on the big fire door. I’d have a few minutes at least before the guard broke in. Long enough to get the answers I wanted.
‘This is a really bad idea, Morgan,’ Dr. Millar said, formalities gone now. He dabbed at blood running from his nose and pushed himself up against the sofa. My head spun as I turned to face him. Violence wasn’t something I was accustomed to or good at, but he didn’t know that. Outside, I heard the guard banging on the door.
‘What happens to them? What happens to the babies?’
Dr. Millar sighed. ‘They stop growing,’ he said. ‘But inside, they still age, at least as much as their bodies will allow. They never gain full adult awareness, but their skin ages, their muscles develop. On a cellular scale, they still get old.’
‘And so people bring them back? Once the novelty has gone, once their cute little baby has started to look at them with different eyes, feel different to their touch . . .’
‘We’re a business, Morgan! We’re here to make money. We give people what they want, and if you actually look in the contract, you’ll see it warns of possible side effects.’
‘You’re sick. You play God with children, exploiting people’s sadness, like my wife.’
‘We just give people what they want. Same as any other company. Don’t give a rat’s ass about the goddamn Amazon when you’re chewing down a burger do you?’
‘But what you do doesn’t work. Jesus Christ, how long does it take before they bring them back?’
Dr. Millar shrugged. ‘Sometimes it’s months, sometimes years. More than twenty, some.’ He pushed himself up into a sitting position. ‘They don’t all come back. I don’t know what happens to the rest.’
Something heavy was slamming against the door. ‘I’ll find a way to close you down, Millar,’ I said.
‘Good luck.’
‘This is all wrong; this is all twisted. And to think you almost had my wife . . .’
Dr. Millar raised an eyebrow. ‘Er, I thought that was why you were here. You know, second thoughts and all that? Your wife was here this afternoon. It’s done.’
I felt like I’d been hit by a train. I reached out behind me, feeling for the wall to hold me up. ‘What did you say? You needed my permission!’
‘The form was signed, Morgan. By both parents.’
‘I didn’t sign it!’
The doctor shrugged again. ‘Well it sure looked like your signature.’
‘Melanie must have forged it!’
‘That’s not my problem now, is it?’
I saw red. I howled with anger and flung myself forward. It took the guard another minute or so to get through the door, but by then Dr. Millar’s face was a bloody mess.
#
By the time I was released from the jail a week later, my charges having been dropped by some mocking act of kindness by Waker & Co, I was homeless, Melanie having thrown my stuff out on the street and taken out a restraining order. I felt understandably hard done by, but I knew my wife wasn’t in her right mind. Waker & Co had also taken out a restraining order as a condition of dropping the charges, but on release it wasn’t there I headed back to, disguised under an old coat and hat. Instead it was the alleyway where I’d last seen mad old Casey. I doubted she’d recognize me either, beneath the bruises; after breaking into the room, the guard had taken a similar liking to my face as I had to Dr. Millar’s. My right hand was also bandaged up, several knuckles broken. I looked quite the hobo as I hunkered down and pulled a blanket over me while I lay in wait.
It actually took three days of sleeping rough in that alley before I saw her, emerging out of a bent metal door about fifty yards further down and hurrying off in the opposite direction. Stiff and cold, I wasted no time in getting to the door and slipping inside.
I found myself inside an old warehouse, nothing left now but empty, dusty shelves and piles of broken-up cardboard boxes. At first I wondered if I’d made a mistake, but then, faintly, I heard it: the high-pitched commotion of a hundred babies’ cries.
I walked towards the sound, my heart heavy. At the end of the upper room I found metal steps leading down. I clumped down the stairs as though I were walking to my death. In one sense, I was, because there was part of me that would never leave the building.
And there, at the bottom, I found them.
A wide, vaulted basement stretched out ahead of me, and beneath its shadowy ceiling was the maternity ward from Hell. Row upon row of cribs, most filled with babies out of nightmares. They screamed and wailed, filling the air with the cacophony of the Devil’s music, some of them lying back in their cribs, others standing up against the plastic bars of their cages, while others, by far the worst, had somehow climbed out and now crawled towards me across the floor, clawing hands reaching for me, puckered faces red with exertion and tears.
I took a few steps backwards. The smell was horrendous, the air filled with the stench of shit and formaldehyde. I gagged, and for a moment almost dropped what I carried in my left hand.
I put the plastic gasoline container down on the floor and used my good hand to unscrew the cap. Hefting it in my arms, I began to walk around the room, sloshing the liquid in a rough circle around the rows of cribs, while the group of crawlers trailed after me.
‘I’m sorry,’ I muttered as I worked. ‘This wasn’t meant to be, none of this was meant to be . . .’
I’d almost completed the circle when I heard the sounds of footsteps on the metal stairs. I looked up to see mad old Casey descending towards me. At first she didn’t notice, and I heard her cooing in response to the cacophony around me.
‘There there, little ones, there there. Casey’s back; Casey’s got food for you all.’
She dropped a pair of large shopping bags at her feet. It was when she looked up that she noticed me.
‘Foolish man, what’s he doing?’ she shrieked. ‘What’s he doing in here with Casey’s babies?’
‘I’m setting them free, and you. This is not natural; these kids don’t deserve this! Get back!’ I set down the empty gasoline can and pulled a cigarette lighter out of my left pocket.
‘Nooooooooo!’ she wailed, starting to hobble towards me. ‘My babies, no you can’t!’
For a moment I had second thoughts, then I felt something scratching at my ankle and looked down to see a horror child, its face a purplish blue, trying to bite down on my ankle. I cried out and kicked it away, then in one motion ignited the lighter and tossed it down.
There was a whoosh and then a ring of fire rose up around the cribs, the heat beating at my face. Already, some of the nearest cribs had caught fire, and I heard Casey screaming over the top of the wailing children. As I jumped through the fire towards the metal stairs I saw her rush past me, her coat already trailing flames, wailing for her children, burned and dying now. The smoke stung my eyes, but as I pulled my way up the stairs with my good hand, I couldn’t bring myself to look back.
The upper level was already full of smoke, but the sounds of the fire were difficult to hear, and I knew it would burn for some time before anyone noticed. Even so, as I emerged on to the alley I pulled a trash can under the handle to hold it shut, heedless of any fingerprints I might leave. My own fate was irrelevant; I just wanted to ensure theirs.
The alleyway was quiet, the only noise from a couple of cars moving along the street at the end. My heart hung heavy in my chest as I headed away, but my task wasn’t yet done. In my left pocket, I fingered something I had taken from my apartment and hidden before I’d drunkenly gone back to Waker & Co, as if I had known I might need it sometime.
A gun.
The retraining order didn’t matter. I was a tramp, I was invisible, and I didn’t need to get that close, only close enough not to miss.
The gun had two bullets in the chambers. One was for Dr. Millar.
The other was for me.
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The Chasm
November 20, 2009 by Publisher · Leave a Comment
When I woke up one morning, I found that a chasm had cut through my room. My bed stood on one side of the abyss, my desk on the other.
The chasm was fortified: a one yard high wall, made of quadratic stone slabs that looked like they had been borrowed from a medieval castle, rose in rectangular precision. I looked completely bedazzled at the stone wall that started right behind my mattress, and sat up to look over it. The wall fell straight down, seemingly into infinity. I couldn’t see a bottom; it was too dark. The wall opposite, made of the same gray, blackish stone slabs with an inch of mortar between them, looked exactly the same as the wall I bent over and was about four yards away.
I pinched the flesh on my lower arm to make sure I was awake and not still dreaming. The pain was very real and the stones of the chasm’s wall felt cold and massive. The wall was a good twenty inches wide.
“What the hell,” I muttered.
I stared down into the blackness and it gave me goose bumps all over by body. Panic gripping me, I crawled backwards through my bed and over the floor, until the wall between my room and the bathroom stopped me.
I had the very distinct feeling that all sorts of things lurked down there in the chasm and were about to crawl up the wall. Giant spiders, rats, scorpions, that sort of stuff. I imagined rats defying gravity and rushing up the vertical wall on their tiny feet, whiskers trembling. I shuddered.
“Mom? Dad?” I shouted.
I was 23 and still lived with my parents and my younger sister, Joyce.
My voice must have sounded very afraid, since I heard heavy steps, my Dad’s steps, rushing down the corridor. He threw the door open.
“What’s wrong, Deirdre?” he asked, then gasped as he saw the walls through my room. Good, he saw them too; it wasn’t only me who had gone crazy.
“Jesus Christ, what’s that?”
“I don’t know, Dad, but I’m glad you see it too,” I said and managed to get up. I rushed towards him in my nightgown and grabbed his arm, hiding behind him. I only realized that I had done that when I felt the warmth of his body so close to mine.
“Is it in the hallway too?” I asked him.
“What? No,” he said, completely thunderstruck. “What in God’s name is that?”
He made a step towards the chasm’s wall to look over it and down into the darkness. I had no particular desire to do that again and rushed to the window instead. I looked outside and shrieked. The chasm was in our garden as well. It spread on into the woods beyond it and I lost sight of it between the trees.
“Dad! It’s in the garden, too!”
“What?” he muttered and joined me at the window. We both stared, unable to comprehend.
“I’ll get dressed,” I said and turned around. Luckily, the dresser with my clothes was on this side of the chasm, not the other. I felt naked in my nightgown, vulnerable. I would feel better if I wore some decent clothes.
Dad remained at the window and stared into the garden, then returned to the chasm that spilt my room. He ignored my hasty fumbling to put on a bra, a t-shirt, socks, jeans, and a warm pullover. Dad stared down the chasm and at its opposite wall. While dressing, I wondered how to get to the other side. The distance was jumpable, just four yards, but there wasn’t sufficient space to take a run-up for the jump. And anyway, to jump across that thing? Jump over the rats, spiders, zombies, demons, whatever lurked in the darkness down there? Oh, no…impossible.
I was dressed; I felt a bit better. I threw a glance out into the corridor. No sign of any stone walls and chasms anywhere. I went back to my window and opened it; a chilly morning breeze blew into my face that smelled of rain and autumn. Things die in autumn. I shuddered at the thought.
I looked down the house and at the chasm through our garden: the two stone walls that lined the chasm were precisely parallel some four yards apart and they stopped right at the wall of our house that seemed unaffected.
I closed the window, and although I didn’t really want to, I just had to take a look at the wall of our house from the inside and approach the chasm. The house’s wall cut unharmed through the chasm until the cellar, then there was darkness. There should have been some daylight coming in from the garden, but there wasn’t. I stepped back, breathing hard, looking at Dad for help, but he was even more crippled by what he saw than I.
“Dad, what time is it?”
“What?”
“What time is it?”
“Oh,” he looked at his watch. “Um, seven thirty.”
“Where are Mom and Joyce?”
“Still sleeping; it’s Sunday morning.”
“You were already up?”
“Yeah.”
Dad couldn’t sleep. Stress at the office didn’t let him rest. We were all worried about him, feared he’d have a heart attack rather sooner than later.
“Let’s wake them up,” I said. He nodded and we left the room.
#
We woke Mom and Joyce and soon we all stood in my room and stared stunned and confused at the chasm and the two walls it was made of and didn’t know what to say, or what to do.
The neighbors came; they had noticed the chasm that stretched through our garden and into the woods behind it.
Some ten people stood in my room, or what was left of it, and stared at the beginning of the chasm.
“And you heard nothing?” Joyce asked me, for about the tenth time.
“No, not a thing. I woke up and saw this!” I pointed vigorously at the chasm’s fortification.
“Incredible,” Joyce mumbled and everyone in the room could do noting but agree.
Our two neighbors, Samuel Goldberg and Ben Bellingwood, went outside to check how far the chasm reached into the woods. They found that the chasm stopped as abruptly as in my room, about 500 yards into the forest.
Dad called the police and the fire brigade and soon hordes of people trampled through my room and through our garden and along the chasm into the woods; all of them equally baffled and helpless.
Nobody had an explanation for what had happened.
I didn’t like the thought, but I knew we would never find out what this thing was, if we didn’t get to the bottom of it–literally.
By the early afternoon, most people had left my room and our house and only my family members, plus the head of the fire brigade, Brad Siskovitch, who was a friend of Dad, and his friend, David Lyles, one of the police officers, remained behind.
I looked at the civil servants. “Gentlemen, I think we can only find out what is going on here by going down into the chasm.”
My mother, Joyce and Dad gasped.
“I share your opinion, Deirdre, but who is ‘we’?” Brad asked.
“Well, please don’t be angry with me, Brad, but usually the fire brigade saves the cats from the trees and wells.”
“I was afraid you’d say that,” Brad said and nodded.
We looked at each other…we felt it, we all did.
“Something is down there,” Joyce whispered. “Something dangerous, weird, unholy…”
“Stop it, Joyce!” Mom hissed.
We all swallowed hard, but then the policeman, David Lyles, cleared his throat.
“That’s rubbish. Come on, Brad, let’s go down there, the two of us. Deirdre’s right, it’s our job.”
I looked at Dad and saw the relief on his face, knowing that they would go down and he wouldn’t have to. I felt ashamed of him. Well, he was just an office worker, had never faced any peril in his life except for intrigues behind desks. Dad’s belly had swollen from too much beer and fatty food. Brad and David weren’t much younger than him, but far better in shape.
“Okay,” I said. “You need ropes, climbing gear, lamps, stuff like that.”
“Yes,” Brad said. “I’ll organize the gear.”
#
Two hours later, Brad and David were ready. It was late afternoon by now, but none of us thought of postponing the expedition to the next day. I, for my part, would never have been able to sleep in my room with the chasm next to me, or even in our house, and one look into Mom’s face told me she shared my opinion. In fact, she had already packed a few bags.
“We’ll drive down to Grandma’s after the expedition,” she said and none of us protested.
Brad had brought several strong flashlights and, putting a rope around one of the burning lights, he and David lowered it down into the chasm. Joyce and Mom couldn’t stand to watch but Dad and I stood to the left and right of Brad and David. Brad had asked two more fire brigade colleagues to join the mission and they now flanked Dad and myself. We all stood lined up at the new yard-high wall inside my room.
Anxiously, we looked at the flashlight that Brad lowered into the depths. We could see nothing but the same gray and black stones with an inch of blackened mortar between them. A solid, well-built wall. The flashlight dangled this way and that. Sometimes it illuminated the opposite wall, which looked exactly like the one on our side; but when the flashlight pointed left or right or down there was nothing but darkness.
“Thirty yards,” Brad said breathlessly. There was no bottom in sight. The flashlight wandered further down.
“Fifty yards. We need more rope,” Brad said and his two fire brigade colleagues were quick to tie another fifty yards of rope to the one whose end Brad held. I admired the knot they made, it looked like a seaman’s knot and I decided to learn more about knots after this was over.
The ropes were connected and Brad lowered the flashlight further.
“There! There! Bottom!” Dad suddenly shouted excitedly and he was right, bottom came in sight, black stone slabs, the same that the walls were made of, covered the floor, mortar between them.
We all gasped and even Mom and Joyce came to join us and looked at the bottom.
I shuddered. I don’t know why, but I had expected the bottom to be earth, trampled earth maybe, but not stones of the same color, size and texture as the walls.
“Seventy yards,” Brad said and the flashlight came to rest at the bottom. He gave the rope a bit of slack–the flashlight didn’t fall any further. The stones that we saw were no illusion; the flashlight had actually reached bottom.
“Why do I have the feeling that we won’t find anything down there?” David asked. “Nothing but slabs of stone.”
“We have to try. Come on, Dave, let’s go.”
I looked from Brad to David. The policeman had gotten cold feet and was more frightened and unsettled now than the fire fighter.
“Shouldn’t we try the descent from a point in the woods?” I suggested. “There we’d have trees to secure your ropes with. I don’t know where to fasten them securely here in my room. And we should also test whether the depth varies, whether it’s different at another point in the chasm.”
The men looked baffled at me.
“Very good points, Deirdre,” Brad said. “Let’s do that. Damn, we’re all too overwhelmed by this stuff here, we have to distance ourselves from it and approach the thing more logically.”
“Logic?” David scoffed. “I see no logic in any of this!”
None of us knew what to say to that. David was right, of course.
Nevertheless, we all moved into the woods and just a few meters into them, with our garden still in sight, we found two sturdy looking trees next to each other that would be able to hold Brad’s and David’s weights.
Brad repeated the test with the flashlight and we got the same result. The bottom was seventy yards down and consisted of stone slabs the same size, color and structure as the walls.
The two fire fighters Brad had asked to join him secured the ropes for Brad and David around the trees. Brad and David, fully equipped with climbing kits, the ropes around their hips, helmets with flashlights on them and more flashlights and pistols in their belts, climbed over the edge of the chasm and their two colleagues lowered them to the bottom, slowly but steadily.
My family members, the two fire fighters and I leaned over the stone wall and looked down.
“Anything?” I asked.
“No, nothing,” Brad answered.
“Another twenty yards!” one of the fire fighters shouted down.
“Okay,” Brad shouted back.
“Damn, do you smell that?” David asked suddenly.
“What? No.”
“It smells…rotten, foul.”
“Really? I don’t smell anything,” Brad said.
“You gotta be kidding. It smells awful.”
“That’s your imagination, buddy,” Brad tried to cheer him up.
They reached the bottom. We could see the flashlights on their helmets as little yellow dots in the dark.
Brad got out of his climbing gear; it tinkled.
“Shouldn’t we leave the gear on?” David asked.
“We don’t have enough rope to cover 500 yards,” Brad said.
Their voices sounded weird, hollow somehow and yet astonishingly close, the walls reflected their voices like echoes.
“What do you see?” I asked.
“Nothing much, just walls and the floor look the same.”
“Any doors, secret passageways, rat carcasses…?” I shouted down and Joyce and Mom shuddered next to me.
“No, nothing like that, nothing at all.”
“What about the smell?” I asked.
“It smells like in a crypt or something, rotten! Foul!” David shouted up.
“I smell nothing,” Brad said.
There was more tinkling; David got out of his climbing gear.
“Okay, we’ll go east first, towards the house,” Brad announced. “Carl, stay with the ropes; Don, walk with us!”
Brad’s colleagues nodded to each other and Don started walking slowly towards our garden and the house. I followed him, Dad too, Mom and Joyce stayed with Carl.
We walked twenty yards towards the house.
“And?” I shouted down.
“Nothing, no change,” Brad said.
I sighed. The tension ate at me. None of this made any form of sense and the sheer impossibility of any of this happening, rattled at the foundations of what I had thought of, so far, to be the world and the truth.
We crossed our garden. The tension rose as we approached the house. The circumference around Dad’s belly had shrunk, so tense were his muscles. He was pretty red in the face, high blood pressure. The weird happenings ate at him, too.
It was sunset; soon it would be dark.
Something was down there in that chasm. As for what, I couldn’t tell, for the life of me. Maybe it would come out after dark.
Dad, Don and I stopped at the house’s wall and stared anxiously down the chasm, where the lights of David and Brad danced along the stone walls.
“Keep on talking while you’re out of our sight!” I shouted down.
They disappeared from our view under the house.
“There’s no change and we can see the end now. It’s the same sort of wall as on the sides. It’s a dead end. I will test the stones with a stone pick,” Brad said.
There came a distinct bang-bang-bang from below.
“Looks and feels solid. There is nothing here. No opening, no crack, nothing. Just solid stones.”
There was a scraping sound.
“The mortar is rock hard; the pick can’t even scratch it.”
“Let’s go back,” David said.
I was very relieved to see David’s and Brad’s flashlights again and also Dad and Don heaved breaths of relief.
We walked back to where Mom, Joyce and Carl were waiting, and from there, continued deeper into the woods. Carl gave us a flashlight and Don walked front, lighting the way for Dad and me, next to the wall of the chasm.
Seventy yards down David and Brad walked along too.
We walked deeper into the woods. It was pitch black. I looked up; there wasn’t even a star visible through the thick canopy of dying leaves, mostly maple, birch and oak, very pretty during the day in shades of red and yellow autumn colors, now dark and menacing.
“Any change?” I shouted down.
“No, nothing,” Brad said.
“The smell’s getting worse!” David said, his voice sounded more and more strained.
“Damn, yes, now I can smell it too, foul, decay…”
“Be careful!” Dad shouted down suddenly.
“I’ve counted the steps,” Don said. “You’re approaching the middle of the thing. Maybe there is something special in the middle!”
“Yes! There is!” Brad shouted up. “There’s an opening in the left hand side of the wall, none on the right side. It’s a tunnel. One man can walk in upright, a yard wide, two yards high.”
“The smell comes from inside!” David added. “It really smells awful in there!”
“Can you see anything?” I asked breathlessly.
“No, the tunnel is rectangular like the rest, same black stones on all four sides. We can’t see anything beyond the range of the flashlight; it’s entirely black.”
“The only thing that’s different is the small size and the smell,” David said.
Don, Dad and I looked at each other and I was pretty sure we were thinking the same thing: Don’t go in there.
“We’re going in,” Brad said.
“No!” David shrieked. He sounded like he was close to panic.
“Okay, I’ll go in,” Brad said.
“Brad! Don’t! I don’t think that’s a good idea, especially not alone!” I shouted down.
“Damn it, I want to know what this crazy thing here is! It wasn’t here yesterday! This is impossible! I refuse to believe that there’s a monster down this tunnel that’ll eat me!” he shouted and went in.
Dad, Don and I saw his two flashlights, the one he held and the one on his helmet, vanish. I held my breath for a while. Nothing happened.
“Brad?” David shouted into the tunnel.
We, on the upper edge of the chasm, heard nothing.
“Is he answering?” I asked.
“No!” David shouted back.
“Shit,” Don flinched silently.
“Can you hear him at all?” I asked.
“No! Not even footsteps anymore! Nothing!” David’s voice quivered, then he snapped. “Brad! Brad! Damn it! Come out! Get out of there! Brad! Fuck! Get out! Out! Answer me! Come back!”
But Brad didn’t come back.
“Fuck!” David shouted and backed away, then suddenly ran down the chasm towards our house and the ropes that led out of the thing.
“David! What are you doing?” Don shouted.
“Get me out of here! Get me out!”
“Damn it! Go after Brad!” Don shouted, while running with him. He looked over his shoulder and shouted at us. “Stay here! In case Brad comes out!”
“Yes!” I shouted back and, trembling, Dad and I waited in the dark.
I had one hand on the wall of the chasm. The stone was cold and clammy. Something was down there and that something had gotten Brad. I knew that. It was too late. Brad was gone, but I didn’t want that to be true. I shrieked as Dad suddenly hugged me.
“Brad’s gonna be alright. I’m sure,” he said and he didn’t say it to me; he said it to himself. He embraced me, not to comfort me, but himself. I was disgusted, but let him hug me.
I stared down into the chasm all the while, looking for a sign of Brad, of life, of the monster that waited there in the dark. I saw nothing. I wanted my eyes to penetrate the darkness but they didn’t. I stared and stared, my eyes hurt, but still I stared.
“Why are they not coming back?” Dad asked suddenly and his voice trembled.
“I don’t know,” I whispered, while I stared into the darkness. The blackness angered me. I wanted to see through it, wanted to know what this madness meant. The less I saw, the angrier I got.
“Damn it, where are they? Why are they not coming back here? Don and David ran back half an hour ago already!” Dad’s voice quivered.
“Go back and find out. I’ll stay here,” I said.
“No way! I won’t leave you here!” he said.
“I won’t leave this place! Someone has to be here when Brad comes back.”
“He won’t come back, Deirdre; he won’t,” Dad whispered.
“Don’t say that!” I hissed.
“He’s dead, honey. Whatever is down there got him.”
I wriggled in his arms. “Let me go! Don’t touch me!”
“Deirdre…”
“Shut up!” I shouted. “I will not go back and leave Brad alone! If you wanna go back, go!”
Dad didn’t go. He shivered behind me and it was not from cold; it was from fear, naked fear. The more he feared, the more I loathed him and the more my anger grew.
Finally–an hour after David had abandoned Brad–Carl, Don, Mom and Joyce finally joined us. Joyce was crying; Mom was shattered; Carl and Don were grim and looked as if they shared my anger.
“What happened?” Dad cried. “Where’s David?”
“He’s dead!” Joyce sobbed.
“He was in a panic. He climbed up the wall too quickly; he fell down from some fifty yards height and split his head open,” Don said dryly, while Mom tried to comfort Joyce.
I felt nothing but satisfaction that this coward had gotten what he deserved and hot shame soon after for my heartless viciousness.
“We called our unit back. They’re on their way to get David’s body out and to look for Brad. Any news from him?” Carl asked.
“No, nothing, not a sound, not a sign,” I said, while Dad embraced Mom and Joyce. I looked at them. I felt distanced from them; they weren’t my family; they were strangers. My anger couldn’t accept their fear.
“Have you proven that David is dead?” I asked.
“Yes,” Don nodded. “I climbed down and checked on him. I couldn’t manage to get him out all by myself though.”
“Well, Brad is more important; he might still be alive,” I said and Don nodded.
“Exactly.”
Carl had brought the ropes and attached them to trees next to the chasm.
Carl and Don asked Dad to look after the ropes and climbed down into the chasm with the last additional hundred yards of rope that they had. Carl secured Don with that rope and Don went into the tunnel. Don walked and walked and Carl uncoiled more and more rope. For the first few yards, Don gave verbal confirmation that he was alright.
“Don!” Carl shouted.
“What is it?” I shrieked from above.
“He’s not answering anymore!”
“Is he still walking?”
“Yes, I’m giving him more and more rope!”
“How many yards?” I shouted down.
“Sixty now.”
“Up or down?”
“No, horizontal, just straight ahead. Seventy yards…”
“Pull him back!” I shouted.
A second later Carl shrieked.
“What?” I asked hysterically.
“The rope’s slack!”
“Shit!” I said.
“I’m pulling the rope out,” Carl shouted and it took an agonizing few moments until he had recovered it.
“The rope’s intact; it’s not torn. It’s as if he took it off himself,” Carl said, despair in his voice.
“Come up here! Get out of there!” I shouted.
“But…”
“Carl! Come up here!”
By the time Carl was back up on the ground of the forest next to the chasm, his unit, Brad’s unit, had arrived.
Joyce was a nervous wreck by now and cried and sobbed. Mom wasn’t much better off, although she managed not to cry. Dad was helpless. We all were, but the helplessness stood written in his face and made him ugly.
Four fire fighters prepared to go down into the chasm to look for Don and Brad.
“I’ll go with you,” I said.
“What? No!” Dad shouted. Mom whimpered; Joyce howled.
Carl put his hand onto my shoulder. “I know how you feel, Deirdre, but sorry, I cannot and will not allow you to go down there. Two men have already disappeared.”
“But the chasm thing appeared in my room, in my room! Not in yours or Brad’s or Don’s! In my room!”
“Nobody knows what this thing is, Deirdre, but I don’t think it has anything to do with your room. You will not go down there. I won’t let you.”
#
Carl didn’t let me go down.
Three more fire fighters went into the tunnel and none of them returned. Their ropes slackened after about seventy yards and were retrieved uncut, untorn, just unknotted. After five men had disappeared without a trace or a sound, nobody wanted to go in anymore. The morning dawned and the firemen decided to stop sending in more men.
They called the army. The same happened with them. The army sent another five men into the tunnel, two at a time, then three at a time. None of them returned. No sound, no sign of fighting or anything like that. The recording equipment they had attached to their belts stopped transmitting as if it had been switched off.
Since all ropes slackened after about seventy yards, the army drilled a hole into the woods at a right angle to the chasm, where they presumed the men had disappeared. They didn’t find the men, not a sign of them, no tunnel, no stone slabs, nothing. They drilled several holes and dug tunnels to connect them. No trace of the missing ten men.
Our house was put under quarantine, as was the whole woods and area around the chasm. We moved in with Grandma for a while, until Dad rented a flat for us at the other end of town. Our neighbors, the Goldbergs and Bellingwoods also sold their houses, way under priced, and moved away.
Speculations ran wild for a while as to what the chasm was and to where the men had disappeared. Some scientists suggested fantastic things like a wormhole to another galaxy, universe, or whatever. Since no solution of any kind was ever found, the public forgot about the chasm after a while, though my family and I never will.
The chasm stands between them and me. They cannot understand my anger and my incredible urge to find out what is at the end of that tunnel. They cannot understand that I can’t let go. I want to know what is inside that tunnel and it drives me crazy that I will never be allowed to go in. Well, maybe I will. I have decided that when I’m old and feel death nearing, when it doesn’t matter anymore whether my life is cut short by a few months, I will somehow get down into the chasm and walk into that tunnel. One day I will go there and find out what happened to the ten men that went inside; I will…I only hope the chasm won’t disappear before I’m old.
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The Carrion Monster
January 2, 2009 by Publisher · Leave a Comment
O amiable, lovely death!
Thou odoriferous stench! Sound rottenness!
Arise forth from the couch of lasting night.
Shakespeare, King John III
“I told you; we needed to use human blood. Pig blood’s just not going to fool anyone.”
“So you make a donation. It’s more than I planned to give. Besides, I had to get the candles and the incense.”
“We didn’t even need the incense; I told you. According to the book…”
“The book. The book said we’d see something by now. Come on, let’s go.”
“We can try again when we find some human blood.”
“Let’s just go.” The two teenagers collected their paraphernalia and scampered over the low stone cemetery fence, leaving behind them a small rough circle of burned grass where a fire had been built. Nearby was a stain on the lawn, black on gray in the dim moonlight.
Time passed, and more dew collected on the blades of grass and on the artificial flowers left at the single fresh gravesite. A passerby would not have noticed anything odd about that grave, would not have heard the muffled pounding and clawing, then the splintering of thick wood, the trickle of earth into an enclosed open space, the gagging, choking sounds, and then the continued clawing, up, up. Hours later, however, just before dawn, a visitor might have heard a scrabbling sound, and seen powerful, gray fingers break the newly-planted turf from below, and would certainly have noticed the figure of a man painfully pulling himself out of the heavy ground. But no one was around.
The figure, clothes and skin caked with damp earth, stood erect and looked around. Then with a deathly moan it sank to its knees, leaning against the tombstone. “Oh, God,” Mike Bagget said. “Now what?”
He lives, he wakes — ’tis Death is dead, not he.
Shelley, “Adonais”
Well, leave the graveyard, for one thing. Mike tried the little cemetery gate, but it was locked. “Now, why… I mean, what’s the use of that?” he muttered, shaking the iron bars. But it wasn’t a tall fence, just an iron railing, a little less than chest high, so he managed to climb over it, leaving smears of wet earth on it as he slid himself over.
Now where? He sat with his back against the gate to think things over. Mike had never been dead before, to his knowledge, and didn’t quite know the rules.
What had happened to him? He was pretty sure he had made no pact with Satan, and if it was Resurrection Day, was he the only one? And the end of the world should be more exciting. Mike stood up and looked back over the fence into the cemetery. Except for the gaping hole from which he’d emerged, all was normal.
But what was that near his hole? Some stubs of candles, and a blackened patch of grass. Clues? Was he raised from the dead through some kind of magic? Then where was the magician? Well, he could puzzle that out later.
Mike sat again and leaned back on the fence, his chin resting in one dirt-encrusted hand. “OK, so I’m undead, or whatever. So what are my options?” he said gravely to himself. “I can’t go back to my grave; I’d die of boredom, lying there for eternity, conscious the whole time. I certainly can’t go home — Mish and Jeff would lose their minds, seeing me like this. But where else can I go?” He looked around, though it was still dark. It occurred to him that there just aren’t many places for a walking corpse to exist undisturbed, especially in a suburb. No dark alleys or abandoned factories or dense forests within which he could lurk.
The only role models that came to Mike’s mind were movie zombies, and they were no help. Assuming, that is, that he didn’t feel an overpowering urge to eat the brains of the living, and so far, at least, he felt no hunger of any sort, though he must have been dead at least a few days, judging from the loose, dry condition of his skin.
Also, to his ill fortune he couldn’t recall many zombie movies set in suburbia.
He could recall his death, though, quite clearly. Walking out to get the Sunday paper, in the street as usual, in his bathrobe, and then looking up just before the damn Ford Explorer had slammed into him. Had the driver even stopped afterwards? He had no idea. The driver must have been drunk. Who the hell else would be driving so fast on a dead end street, early on a Sunday morning? Or maybe he was some kid, or a guy talking on a cell phone. Mike’s next memory had been waking up dead, in his coffin. And so much for death revealing all of life’s secrets. He didn’t know anything more now than he did when he died. What a crock.
I’ve been cheated, he thought. I was supposed to have comforting visions of a bright light, and old friends and relatives to welcome me to the other side, and then some kind of heaven. What do I get, instead? Nothing. Nothing at all.
Oh, well. The problem remained: where to go? At night he could just wander the streets, keeping to the shadows as much as he could. If he could get hold of better clothes, and a hat or a hood, probably no one would worry too much if they saw him walking by, right?
Heck, of course they would. The Neighborhood Watch would wonder why someone was out walking so late, and insomniacs seeing him out their windows would talk to their neighbors the next day about that mysterious night stalker.
Then he recalled that under his house there was a crawlspace. It was used for nothing — the haunt of spiders and probably mice, but no one ever went there. It wouldn’t be comfortable, but it was better than nothing.
And — who was he kidding? — it was a reason to go back home, and see (or at least hear) something of what was going on there in his absence. He picked himself up, wiped ineffectually at the damp dirt now drying on his clothes and face, and then departed the cemetery, heading home.
In the midst of life we are in death.
The Book of Common Prayer
It was a lot farther to his house than he remembered it being; but then, he wasn’t driving. On the other hand, though, the long hike didn’t tire him; he felt full of energy, even though earlier in the night he had clawed his way up through several feet of dirt. Well, it was only fair for death to give him some compensation.
The night passed away as he walked, and the sun was already showing a bright crescent over the neighbor’s house by the time Mike neared home. He had kept to the shadows as the dawn had slowly brought them into being, both to make it harder for early risers to notice him — though he wouldn’t mind startling that damn paperboy who always missed the porch — and because he feared that direct sunlight might have the power to vaporize him.
Then he was just across the street from his home, and he crouched in the Lemmons’ hedge, looking out. No traffic on the street this early; fortunately, he lived on a dead-end. There didn’t seem to be anyone awake in his house, yet, either — no surprise there. But there was no way to get home without crossing the strip of sun which lay on the road between the Lemmons’ house and his own.
Leaving the hedge, he walked slowly forward, until he stood at the edge of the shadow cast by the Lemmons’ house. He extended his left arm and leaned forward until his fingers entered the sunlight.
Nothing. No searing sensation, no bubbling of the flesh. Breathing a sigh of relief (just the force of habit; he had noticed some time ago that he no longer breathed), he quickly crossed the street and slid into the shadows along the left side of his house. At the base of the wall, half-hidden by the rhododendron bush, was the small, square entrance to the crawlspace. He pulled the chicken wire off of the rusted nails that held it in place and crept into the dark, dry crawlspace. Then he wrestled the wire back into place.
Inside he found that he could sit up, as long as he didn’t sit up straight.
“Honey, I’m home!” he said softly to himself. “Sorry I’m late.” He produced half a smile.
He wished he had a book, or something.
What is this world? What asketh men
to have?
Now with his love, now in his colde
grave
Alone, without any compaignye.
Chaucer, The Knight’s Tale
“Get away, Squiggles! Go on!” he whispered harshly to the animal sniffing around the entrance to the crawlspace. That damn dog! Someone was bound to start wondering sooner or later what she was so excited about. She would sniff around, tail wagging, then lie at the opening and whimper. Then up to her feet, and the process would repeat. This had been going on almost without break since the clapping of the screen door had let the dog outside to do her morning business.
Finally Mike removed the wire again. “OK, Squiggles. Come on in. Come on! Come on!” True to her mutt nature, the dog quailed at the opportunity, but her tail wagged harder, until it seemed ready to fly off the dog’s butt, and the little creature whined even more urgently.
“OK, here we go,” said Mike. He leaned out of the opening, and the dog danced back, then returned. She sniffed Mike’s outstretched hand for a bit, looked skeptical, then finally gave into joy and licked it, though somewhat dubiously. Mike took hold of the dog’s collar and pulled her into the crawlspace.
“That’s OK, yeah, Squigger-dog, I’m home again; how are you?” he said, petting the dog. Squiggles still seemed a little confused by his smell, but eventually she lay down by Mike’s side happily enough, her tail thumping up brown dust.
“I see your grief over your departed master hasn’t done any damage to your appetite,” Mike said. “Still fat as a pig, aren’t you, dog?”
He couldn’t get enough of petting her. It was a great comfort to have her lying near him, to feel her breathing, and sense, even if only vaguely, her warmth. For the first time since his death, Mike smiled broadly.
“Well, you can come down and visit me here anytime you want, Squig, but you can’t tell anyone about me, OK?” Sitting up was awkward, so Mike lay belly up next to Squiggles, one hand on the dog and the other on his stomach, his head on a leftover brick that he had tossed down here after he had finished the patio three summers before.
As the morning wore on Mike heard the front door slam as Jeff went to school, and later the sound of the vacuum cleaner running across the floor above his head, bumping into the furniture. Thunk, the sofa. Clunk, the coffee table.
Squiggles became restless, and Mike wrestled the chicken wire free so the dog could escape. Although he had yet to feel sleepy, or even tired, he again lay on his back. His mind wandered as he lay there, absently watching a spider move uncertainly across the ground.
He would have to find something to do, to occupy his time, or he would go mad from terminal boredom. Steal some books from somewhere, maybe, or find a way to get his little battery-powered transistor radio from the garage.
The sound of the vacuum had stopped long ago, and he wondered what Michelle was doing. In all the time they had been married, he had never really known what she got up to all day. She couldn’t spend all her time cooking and cleaning, could she? Would she watch soaps? Drink in her bathrobe? Mike suddenly realized how little he knew his wife, how little they had shared their lives in the house.
Later that morning he heard a low sound from upstairs, a burbling, choking sound. It went on for ten minutes before Mike realized that it was Michelle, crying. He pressed his hand against his low ceiling. “I’m here, honey,” he whispered. “It’s all right. I’m home.” After a while the sobbing dropped out of audibility. Perhaps she had fallen asleep.
It must have been past noon when he heard the dog again at the entrance, snuffling and whining. Mike let her back in. She briefly explored Mike’s underground domain, snuffling into the corners, then settled in next to Mike. He scratched her absently as he sat.
After a while he noticed that the dog was gently gnawing the edge of his hand, tiny teeth worrying the dead flesh, and Mike pulled it away. “Stop that, Squiggles. I might need that someday.”
Suddenly he heard the front door slam shut. After a pause, he heard the sound of the car starting, and then the crunch of gravel as it was leaving the driveway. “She must have gone shopping or something,” he said.
Then he sat up straight, hitting his head against the floor. It didn’t hurt. “Now is my chance!” he whispered. He tried to crawl to the opening, but the dog was in the way. “Come on, Squig. Let’s go. Come on.” The dog finally got to its feet and bumbled along beside him as he crawled to the opening. He took the chicken wire off the nails.
Outside, he crouched down. He could see no one, hear no one. He slunk around to the back door, on the other side of the rhododendron.
Locked. He reached into a pocket, then stopped himself. Of course he no longer carried his keys around. The people who had buried him had thoughtlessly not put them into the pocket of the suit.
Next to the back door was the laundry-room window. One single thin pane. He had always meant to do something about that window; it was too tempting for thieves. He still felt guilty about it. Still, it was lucky that he hadn’t put those bars in, as he had planned.
He drew back an elbow, then rammed it into the glass. It shattered, and as he pulled his arm back the shards of glass caught at his sleeve, ripping it and the skin beneath. But there was no blood, and no real pain, only a faint sensation, like the light scratching of fingertips trailing along the back of a hand.
He paused — had anyone heard? When all remained quiet, lifeless except for the sound of birds, he pulled away the pieces of glass from the window frame, until he could squeeze through.
By the time he worked his way through the window, the pieces of glass still in the window frame had badly torn his clothes, and punctured his skin along his left side and thigh. He grabbed the edge of the dryer, under the window, and pulled himself forward. Finally he was standing in the laundry room.
He walked through the empty house. First, the living room. Some of the furniture had been rearranged, he saw. His chair — his chair! — was gone, and the couch was against a different wall. He picked up some magazines from the coffee table, and a couple of books from the bookshelf next to the TV. Ah, the TV. What a shame that he couldn’t bring that down to the crawlspace!
Next, his old bedroom. Michelle hadn’t made the bed. That was unusual. Then again, maybe she always made the beds later in the day. She still slept on the left side, he noted from the indentation in the pillow. He bent down to smell it, but noticed nothing. His sense of smell seemed completely dead. But he found a stray hair on the pillow, and he picked it up and put it in his pocket. Funny; before his death he had never been the romantic type. Or so Michelle had complained; he was always at work, even bringing it home more nights than not.
He poked his head into the frozen maelstrom of Jeff’s room, and then went into the garage. There, under the workbench — his old radio. He also picked up a couple of hinges from a cabinet, and some screws and a screwdriver.
He went into the kitchen then, and found two extra batteries for the radio rolling around in the junk door. He put them in his pocket. He wanted to get some more, but which store could he pop into, in his condition? And he had no money, anyway.
Then he opened the refrigerator door. He hadn’t thought about doing it; it was just the force of habit. He looked at the food inside — a carton of eggs, carrots and celery in their plastic bags, less than half of a blueberry pie, the carton of milk, a plastic jug of apple juice.
Was he hungry? He wasn’t sure. He should be starving. Did his digestive tract even work anymore? Did the stomach and intestines have an afterlife, or was hunger as extinct as he was?
He closed the door and turned around. A bowl of apples and bananas sat on the kitchen table, Michelle’s continuing campaign to get Jeff to snack on something besides junk. He picked up an apple. He bit into it, chewed, and swallowed.
It was almost tasteless, maybe because of his sense of smell was deceased. But it didn’t seem to harm him, to eat.
A new thought striking him, he put the apple down. He picked up his reading materials and radio and put them on the coffee table in the living room, and went back into his bedroom. Good — she hadn’t gotten rid of his clothes yet. He grabbed a pair of jeans, a few T-shirts, some socks and his sneakers. He reached for his coat, then remembered that the cold seemed to have no effect on him.
What else? And how long would it be before Michelle came back from the store? He came back into the living room and looked around like a thief. Well, he could come back another time, if he thought of anything else he needed. Going back into the kitchen he took up the apple he had tried eating, and a couple more, along with a couple of bananas. Back in the living room, he tied the jeans around the magazines, books, radio, shirts, sneakers, and fruit, making a bundle, and went to the back door.
He opened it a crack, and jumped back when Squiggles tried to force her nose into the narrow slot. “Oh, only you!” he said. “You almost gave me a heart attack!” He looked out. No one nearby. He slid past the door, locking it again behind him. Crouching down, he crawled back into his dwelling.
First he changed his clothes. It did wonders for his self-image not to be covered by the torn, damp, earth-smeared formal vestments. Should have brought a comb, though, and a shower would have been nice. Well, next time.
Then he glanced at the magazines he’d grabbed. A National Geographic — that should be some good reading. And Jeffrey no longer seemed to like them as much as he’d used to, so he wouldn’t miss it. He paged through it, and then noticed something.
“Damn! I didn’t bring down a light!”
Well, there was still the radio.
To lie in cold obstruction and to rot.
Shakespeare, Measure for Measure
Another day.
From his lair he could hear the workman clumsily flirting with his wife, if he crouched near the opening. “Anything else I can do you for, you just let me know. I’m ready, willing, and able!” the man said, a leer in his voice. “A job like this — well, something like that won’t take me too long.” The guy probably thought he was being clever. Well, Mike thought, it was his own damn fault, for breaking the window in the first place.
“No, just the window, thank you!” said Michelle, laughing. But it was her fake laugh, he was relieved to hear.
“Change of heart, you know where I’ll be the next half hour or so!” the deep male voice said. Then he heard the back door closing, and the same voice murmuring disconnected snatches of various songs.
“Idiot,” Mike murmured softly. Not softly enough — the song perished on the man’s lips. After a pause, he began again.
He had spent most of the night before scraping away at his dirt floor with the brick he’d been using for a pillow, pushing the discarded earth to one side. Now, he could sit up a little straighter. He planned to continue the project the next night. Death had boosted his strength and stamina; he was not the least bit tired. And he had yet to feel sleepy. But he couldn’t do anything now, with the workman so near. No radio, and it was still too dark in there to read. Too bad he hadn’t bought a kerosene lamp when he was living. Mike was bored to death.
The workman finally finished his job on the window. Mike could hear him talking to Michelle at the front door. After the door closed he listened intently for the sounds of the man’s boots on the floor over his head, but heard nothing. What would he do, Mike wondered, if he heard the sound of bedsprings? Erupt through the floor in righteous fury? Yet if he stayed down here long enough, Michelle was bound to start dating again.
Suddenly he heard the front door open, then slam shut with a bang. Mike, his protective instincts alive within him, sat up so quickly that he hit his head on the floor above him again.
“Mom!” he then heard. “Got anything to eat?” It was just Jeff, home from school.
“This is ridiculous,” he said quietly to himself. “Back from the dead, and I might as well be dead.” He looked up at the floorboards over his head. “I can’t live like this forever!” He wished he could at least pace.
The lack of light bothered him the most. He could pass a lot of time reading, and the gloom of the crawlspace was getting depressing. Michelle was bound to have candles somewhere in the house — the Christmas candles, and maybe some that she kept around for blackouts. But he didn’t want to break the window again. He’d have to wait for a better opportunity. He flicked a spider off his face. He would have to be patient.
Meanwhile, he had the radio. He switched it on, keeping the volume low. There was a lot of crap on the radio — Rush Limbaugh, Art Bell repeats, Dr. Laura, endless traffic reports — but he was discovering some good stations. He set the dial on a jazz station he’d found in the dead hours of the night before and lay back. He remembered that, in life, he had sometimes had this station on when he was washing the car on Sunday afternoons in the summer.
Just be patient, he told himself. It wasn’t much of a life, but it beat being dead. He supposed.
Whence and what art thou, execrable shape?
John Milton, Paradise Lost
His opportunity to break into his house again came a few days later. It was a warm day, unusually so for this early in the spring, and Michelle had been working on preparing the little vegetable garden in the backyard for planting, hoeing the dark soil, tossing weeds and rocks, both of which seemed to multiply each year, into a small pile. When she went inside, she left the back door open. After a time, Mike realized that she must have finished her work; maybe she had turned her attention to the flower garden in the front yard.
Or was she still in the house? He had to know, before he dared enter the house. How could he find out? He crouched indecisively in the darkness. By dislocating his right shoulder, he could just manage to press an ear against the dirty dry ceiling — the floor of the living room. He heard nothing, no TV or radio or dishwasher, no vibrations from walking. But she might be reading, or dozing on the couch. He bit his lip in thought.
Then he heard a sound — from the front yard. The sound of water hissing through a hose, and of sprinkles hitting leaves — she was watering the front yard, or the flowers! It would take time — not much, but some — for her to finish watering, and then to recoil the hose. He had a minute or two, if he acted quickly.
Swiftly he pulled at the chicken wire, tearing the skin of his right hand in his haste. He felt the skin ripping, but again there was no pain, nor blood. He got the screen off and pushed it aside.
Poking his head out, he saw that the back yard was indeed empty. He crawled out, and crept to the back door. He would just get some candles. Or a flashlight — yes, there would be one in the kitchen drawer, and maybe some batteries. Maybe getting both a flashlight and some candles would be best. And matches and batteries.
He knew he had to hurry. He entered the door, and looked around. All quiet, except for the sound of the water hitting the lawn in the front yard. On the way to the kitchen he skulked past the entrance to the living room, glancing in as he passed. He saw through that the front door was also open, at the far end of the room. He couldn’t see Michelle in the yard. But he still heard the sound of water.
In the kitchen. He pulled at the junk drawer — damn, it was stuck! He pushed and pulled and jerked, and finally it came open, a screwdriver and a box of staples and some dried pens rattling as it did so. No more batteries in there. But — ah! There was a single dusty candle. He snatched it up, then it flew out of his hands as something jumped on the small of his back.
If his heart had still been beating, it would have stopped then. Mike whirled around.
“Squiggles! You damn dog!” He tried to keep his voice low. “You scared the damn life out of me!”
Then he noticed a change in the light, a sudden shadow. He looked up. There stood Michelle in the doorway, her dirty gardening gloves in her hand.
Mike had never seen anyone actually faint before. He had thought that it was something that only happened in the movies. Michelle collapsed like a deflating hot-air balloon, settling to the floor in a delicate, dream-like way. Squiggles hurried to her and licked her face, but Mike pushed him away.
He gently picked Michelle off of the tiled floor, brought her into the living room and laid her on the couch. The dog looked worried, then decided to lie down and sleep it off.
Well, the jig was up. In a way, it was a relief to have been found out.
He sat in his chair and looked at her. She seemed to be sleeping normally. Then he realized that he must look like hell, so while she was out he took the opportunity to duck into the bathroom, and washed his face and hands — that took a while, and he had to be careful not to scrub too forcefully, lest the dead flesh be peeled from his bones — and combed his hair with one of Michelle’s brushes.
He looked at himself in the mirror. His face didn’t look so bad, considering. His eyes had a bit of an orange tinge that hadn’t been there before, and the skin under his eyes was darkened, and sagged to an alarming extent. His skin was a pasty whitish gray, and he could see that he could use a haircut. But, all in all, not too bad.
Then he returned to the living room and again sat in his chair. He considered, and then got up. He pulled the chair a few extra feet from the sofa; he didn’t want her terrified upon awakening. He sat down again, and waited.
After a few more minutes, Michelle began to stir. She gave a quick, involuntary shake of the head, and her mouth turned down, her brow creased. Then she suddenly opened her eyes.
For a moment she looked confused, finding herself on the couch. “Unh?” she said. No doubt she was wondering if the apparition of her dead husband she had witnessed had been a dream. Then she turned her head, and saw Mike.
He was sitting with his chin down to his sternum, his hands in front of his face.
Michelle made a sound, halfway between a gasp and an interrogation. Before she could find any words, Mike spoke.
“Yes, it’s me. Mike. I don’t know how, but somehow I have come back. Yes, I really seem to be dead. No, you’re not going crazy. I don’t know how it happened, but it did. And I’m not a flesh-eating zombie; I’m just the same old Mike, only dead now. Except I feel fine.” He kept talking that way, trying to give her time to adjust to the situation. And finally he took his hands from his face.
Michelle gasped again, but with recognition along with horror and disbelief. Mike stood up — Michelle shrank back — and turned his back on her. “I look like hell, I guess,” he said. It was manipulative, but he was sure she would try to reassure him, the same way she used to say that his potbelly was hardly noticeable, or that she didn’t mind him losing his hair.
Michelle couldn’t resist. “No, no, considering…” she started to say. “Mike… how?”
“I don’t know how,” he told her again. “I don’t remember a thing. I woke up, though, in the coffin, and I somehow knew that I had been dead. I clawed my way back up to the ground.” He smirked. “I’m a lot stronger now than I used to be. Every cloud has a silver lining, I guess.”
Then he told her of how he’d returned home, and how he had been living — “no, I guess ‘staying’ would be a better word” — under the house. Michelle listened to him without saying a word, without even glancing at him. She kept her eyes on the coffee table, unfocused, and her mouth was open a little.
Mike finally finished his story, and waited for Michelle to speak, or to at least look up. She didn’t.
“I know it’s not easy for you,” he said. “I can leave if you want. I don’t belong here anymore. But it was the first thing to come to mind. I didn’t know where else to go.”
Michelle finally looked at him, though only for an instant. “Of course you came home,” she said. “This is where you should be.” She clenched her hands in her lap. “It’s going to; it’s just going to take me some time to get used to it all, you know?”
Mike smiled. “I’m not impatient,” he said.
Michelle looked at him again, a firmer expression on her face. “We’ll work things out somehow,” she said. “Oh, Mike, welcome back!” She made as if to hug him, then stopped herself. “You probably want a hot bath,” she said. “You must be stiff from sitting under the house all that time.”
“Yeah, good idea,” Mike said.
“I’ll uh, I’ll get some clean clothes for you to change into.”
“Oh, I came in yesterday — I broke the window, sorry — and I got some clothes to change into then. They’re fine. I don’t seem to sweat at all.”
“Well, uh, OK, then. But they’re all covered in dirt.”
“Yeah, from the crawlspace. I guess I should change, then.” He bounced to his feet with fraudulent eagerness. “But first, that bath.” Mike paused at the bathroom door. “Do you want to tell Jeff, or…?”
“I will,” Michelle said. “He’ll probably think it’s cool.”
Let us have a quiet hour,
Let us hob-and-nob with Death.
Tennyson, “The Vision of Sin”
“Mish, it’s time to renew that National Geographic subscription. It’s about to expire.”
“Write a check,” Michelle said, poking her head out of the kitchen. “Or use a credit card. That’d be better.”
“Good idea,” Mike said, deadpan. “But my Visa account is kaput, and the MasterCard people may have also decided to terminate my account. I never thought I’d see the day when I became a deadbeat dad.”
“Oh, that’s right.” Michelle stepped into the living room, drying her hands on a towel. “Those big companies can be so insensitive. I’ll do it.” She turned back to the kitchen, then stopped. “Are you using that deodorant?”
“Yeah. I used some this morning.”
“Why don’t you put some more on. Or use some aftershave. It smells like something died in here.”
Mike put down the magazine. “What are you doing in there? I said I’d clean up. It’s not like I’m working anymore.”
“Oh, I’m just getting some things put away,” Michelle called. “Besides, you’re doing all that envelope stuffing. That brings in some money.”
“That’s just at night. I’ve got to call them back about that phone soliciting job.”
“Oh, honestly, Mike. I’m working now. And it’s not like you eat. Besides, you have kind of a sepulchral tone nowadays.”
“Perfect for selling funeral plots over the phone.”
“Dad,” Jeffrey said, slamming the front door, “Connor did it again today.”
“Did what, Jeff?” Mike put down the magazine.
“He just came right up to me in the hall, and I wasn’t doing nothing, and he pushed me; he slammed me against the lockers. And he’s a really big guy, too.”
Mike looked up. “Maybe you should bring him on over here for a little visit, son. You know, I really should meet some of your friends.”
Jeff looked perplexed for a moment, and then he grinned widely. “Oh, that would be so cool!” he said. “He’d just crap his pants!”
“Now, Mike,” Michelle called from the kitchen. “It’s hard enough to keep you out of sight. We’re not going to have you coming out of the closet just to terrify the local bully. Jeff will have to find some other way to get the Connor boy to behave.”
“I suppose you’re right, Mish,” Mike said. In a lower voice, he said to Jeff, “We’ll work something out, kid. I can always pop out from a hedge when he’s walking home one night, and give him a little thrill. He’d never connect us.”
“That’d be so great!” Jeff said, his voice also a conspiratorial whisper.
“Shhh,” Mike reminded him, pointing to the kitchen.
Just then Michelle appeared in the kitchen doorway. Jeff snatched up his school backpack and hurried to his room, giving his dad a wink before disappearing. “Mike, is this the thumbnail that you were looking for this morning?” Michelle asked, holding something between her thumb and forefinger. “I found it on the kitchen floor, under your chair.”
Mike put the paper down on the coffee table and got up from the armchair. “Oh, yeah, yeah it is. Thanks.”
“Sweetheart, you just can’t keep leaving parts of yourself all over the house like this. I mean, what if I had thrown it away when I was sweeping?”
“Yeah, I got to be more careful. Where do we keep the superglue?”
“Same as it’s always been, in the kitchen drawer.”
He rummaged through the junk drawer until he found it, a small, creased tube. “We’d better get some more of this stuff. It’s great.” He squeezed a drop onto the thumbnail.
Michelle said, “Here, let me do that. You’ll put it on all crooked.”
“So I tear it off again, and try again,” Mike said. But he let Michelle put the thumbnail back on.
“Thanks, dear,” he said when she had finished, kissing her on the cheek. Suddenly she returned the kiss. He put his arms around her. When they’d finished, he raised an eyebrow.
“It’s been so good to have you back with us again,” Michelle said.
“For me, too, Mish.”
“It was hard at first.”
“I know.”
“I even felt like you had cheated me, that my grief was all for nothing.”
“I know.”
“Your eyes are looking a little red, dear.”
“No doubt it’s due to the fires of hell that revived and sustained my decaying corpse.”
“Yes, well, let’s try some eye drops later,” Michelle said. “And speaking of your decaying corpse, I think you should spend more time in the sun. The backyard fence is high enough to hide you. Maybe if you could dry your skin out…”
“Tan my hide?”
“…then you might not, uh, rot away so quickly.”
“That’s a good idea,” said Mike. “And maybe I can hurry the tanning along a little. I’ll see what I can do, pressing your iron against my skin. I really should learn how to use that thing for clothes, too, now that I’m a house-husband.”
“Well, do it outside. It might smell,” said Michelle. Then she looked down, concern crossing her face.
“What is it?”
“I just wish… you know, since your, uh, your near-death experience…”
“– More like near-life experience,” he said.
“When you were gone,” she continued, “I used to talk to Deborah almost every day, sometimes for hours. She and Larry were just great for me.”
He wasn’t sure where this was leading. “They’ve always been good to have as neighbors,” he said. “I’m glad they stuck by you. Really.”
“Yes, well, since you came back, I’ve hardly spoken to Debbie. She called this morning. I think she’s getting concerned.”
Mike considered the information. “She has to be wondering why you’ve stopped seeing her so much,” he said. “Inviting her over to the house and so on.”
Michelle nodded.
“Do you,” he said, “do you want to try, uh, try to include them in our dirty little secret?”
Michelle was relieved. “Do you think we could?” she said. “I don’t think they’d let anything slip.”
“No, I guess not,” Mike said. “They’re good people.”
She nodded.
“OK,” he said. “How do you want to do this?”
“I can invite them over for dinner tomorrow night,” she said. “Now don’t go misplacing any of yourself before then, and use some of that rouge on your face and hands. Just a little bit. Like I showed you.”
Mike didn’t enjoy using the makeup, but he saw her point. Better to let Larry and Deborah get used to him being back first, before they saw his deathly pale visage.
“Sure thing,” he said. He suddenly felt a desire to hold her again. She leaned into his embrace, and they stood silently for a moment. He felt her eyelashes flick his cheek as she blinked.
She pulled herself back and looked into his eyes. His hand found hers.
“Cold hands, warm heart, isn’t that what they say?” he said.
She nodded. “I guess we, I mean, we haven’t really tried, since you came back, to see if that’s, I mean, if you can still, you know.”
“I honestly don’t know.”
“Well, let’s find out.” She pulled him towards their bedroom. “Turn me on, dead man.”
The gods conceal from the living how pleasant death is, so that they will continue to live.
Lucan, Pharsalia
“Well, hell, Mike, you know, any way you can screw the insurance company, that’s just fine with me!” Larry laughed, but Mike saw the uncertainty in his eyes. Still, he was impressed. Michelle had done a great job preparing them for the shock of his appearance among them.
“Yes. Welcome back to the neighborhood, Mike,” said Deborah. She extended her hand, as if to shake, and then changed her mind and fumbled for a cookie from the platter, trying on a smile.
Mike smiled at them both. He saw their eyes searching his face for signs of death, but he pretended not to notice. He would probably have been uneasy, too, if one of his neighbors had become the living dead.
“Sorry, Mike,” she said.
“No problem,” Mike said. He sat at the kitchen table with the others. Michelle had set things out to make things seem as normal as possible. The cookie platter was in the middle of the table, and of course everyone had their usual cup of coffee, and a napkin. Deborah had twisted hers into a tight knot.
“It’ll just take a little time, I guess,” she said. “But it’s good to have you back. I know Michelle has really enjoyed the working world, and you’re home to look after Jeff and things. It must be really nice.”
“Do you have any idea of who or what brought you back?” said Larry.
“You know, Mish is working at the library, and she found that some very unusual books were borrowed just before my resurrection,” Mike said.
“Yes,” Michelle said. “Special-ordered. There was one by a guy named Levi, The Dogma and Ritual of High Magic, and some stuff by other people I never heard of, who I guess are big in the black magic world — Agrippa, Boullan, Barret. On demonology and witchcraft and stuff like that. We’re guessing the spell must have been in one of those.”
“Kids, I suppose,” said Larry.
“Sounds like you’ve become quite an expert on the subject, Michelle,” said Deborah.
“Well, I have a lot of free time there at the library. You know,” she put down her cup, “actually I brought those books home. Reported them missing. The thought of those things in the library, where kids could get at them… and what if anything should happen to Jeff? I just couldn’t live with myself…”
“That coffee smells good,” Mike said. He picked up a cookie and nibbled on it.
“Oh,” said Michelle. “Let me get you a cup.”
“You can still eat, huh?” said Larry.
“Sure,” Mike said. “Just because I’m dead that’s no reason to starve to death.” He didn’t mention, of course, the bits of masticated food he would find in the toilet later, since his bowels no longer functioned. But he figured that pretending to eat alongside Larry and Deborah might set them more at ease, make him seem more like his old self.
“One thing, though,” he said. “I get no effect from beer these days.”
“Oh, Jeez,” said Larry. “I think I’d rather die.”
Death is sometimes a punishment, sometimes a gift; to many it has come as a favor.
Seneca, Hercules Oetaeus
I have been half in love with easeful death.
Keats, “Ode to a Nightingale”
“I just don’t know what I can say, Deb.”
“Oh, he always had a roving eye,” said Deborah. “But I never thought that he might actually act on — those impulses, I guess you could call them — until just lately.” She looked out the kitchen window at the stunted apple tree in the yard.
Michelle sipped her coffee. “I used to wonder, myself, about Mike, sometimes,” she said. “You know, when he would work late. Now, of course… I mean, he’s really dead down there.”
“Well, that’s no good.”
“Well, he still, I mean, he has his ingenuity. Actually, it seems that now that he can concentrate on my… Well, let’s just say it hasn’t been a problem. And at least I know where he is nowadays, and since his death he’s never been sweeter, in bed or out.”
“You know, Michelle, it strikes me that, in some ways, you have an ideal situation.”
“You think so?” She sipped her coffee. “That couldn’t be envy I hear, is it? I just knew it. Get a dead husband, and before you know it all the neighbors want one too! I hope Larry has a good life insurance policy. He’d better watch out!”
Deb laughed. Then, the coffee cup halfway to her lips, she paused, thinking.
And be a carrion monster like thyself.
Shakespeare, King John III
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